babygirl's blog: "shortys randomness"

wat to do, wat to think, wat to believe, hmmmm nthin can explain how i feel my heart sinks jus tryin to say the words the tears wont flow the way they should nthins the same my mind races tryin to figure out the confusion i wanna believe everything that uve told me of how u feel of wat u want wit me but sometimes it feels like i cant sometimes it feels like im jus here..... invisible....... i jus wanna b happy n things go rit for once but mayb thats far more fetched than wat i thought or far more fetched beyond the clouds jus sittin here thinkin wondering wats real n true n my love for u will never fade away jus take the leap n go for it puttin that mask on everyday gets really tiring a real true smile would b awesome to have on but only u can do im nt always here here sometimes i jus stand there starin off in a daze waitin to b taken waitin for u to tell me what u really feel n wat u really truly want....... but mayb everything is to far for my reach im nt gonna always b here nt gonna always b standin in the same spot right now im glued to the spot where u put me nt movin till u move me glued to this spot waitin on wats real n true jus chilliin starin up at the stars that are bright n light up the sky like the way u light up my life jus tell me whats real, whats true, tell me i dont have to wait ne longer for wat ive already been waitin on tell me that my mind can stop racin in circles for answers.....mayb u can make the nightmares, the demons, the horrible memories fly away to burn in hell wit no chance of comin back to keep hauntin me beyond imagination.... yea this world that still spinnin around us keeps throwin fire balls directly at us but u have that strength n the ice to stop them.....nthins the same the way we talked laughed smiled hugged where did all that go or is it jus hidin from all the demons that wont let go of their chain in the tunnel when u turn the light on they stare u down lookin at u like u dont belong here whens it gonna change when are the demons gonna let go of their chain n leave this tunnel so happiness can truly exist