OK so it has been one hell of a seven days since last Friday. So many ups and downs and I think I need a serious break LOL
Last Friday my boyfriend found out his company is closing and he might be lucky enough to still have a job for the next two months. The job market here sucks as I'm sure it does every where else.
My Uncle Michel in Canada has been in the hospital off and on for nearly a year now. He had to have a liver transplant which he got, but it caused so many other problems. They finally found out he has 3 pretty severe infections between his liver and gall bladder. Mortality rate with one of them is 30% and since he has Hep C, we know he'll be part of that 30%.
My Uncle Donald, my mom's brother and yes he's gay. If you have a problem with that, remove me from your friends list now, is holding up the best he can. They have been together over 30 years and it just breaks his heart to see the love of his life slowly dying and not being able to do anything about it. The reality of all of this finally hit me last night when I stopped kidding myself and accepted the fact that he is dying.
I hate loss, I hate heartbreak, I hate pain, I hate sorrow, I hate uncertainty. Everything was going so good and now it's all falling apart. Makes me wonder, on some small level, if getting re-involved in the church really was such a good thing. I know it is, but it's times like this I just don't understand what God is thinking.
I also have a very, very dear friend going through some changes and I wish I could magically make everything better for everyone involved. Just hang in there sweetie, it'll be ok and it will work out. Know that you are truly loved by many.
Still don't know what we're gonna do about Donnie's job, but I guess we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. I just needed to get stuff off my chest in the hopes that it will help.
Also to explain why I haven't really been around and why I may be on less often in the next few weeks/months. Have a lot going on as you can see. Just know that I luv and miss ya'll and I'll be back to myself soon.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. Much love!
T 
