i had a therapist appointment tonight, and i told him about this pattern with my boyfriend... that he gets out of the hospital, goes to meetings for a couple weeks, then uses drugs again and ends up in the hospital. this is really bad because while i am a very strong person, when i'm with him, i have virtually no willpower... i will do anything, ANYTHING that he asks of me. which means when he shows up with drugs, i do them with him.
well, my therapist, upon hearing all of this, told me i need to break up with him and put as much distance as possible between us, because he drags me down and hinders my own recovery.
he said to tell him he can come back to me after he's been clean 3 years.
so now not only is the man i love in the hospital battling a very serious mental illness... but now i have to LEAVE him.
i want to die.
repost if you feel like it, if not i really don't care, i am so upset right now that no amount of cherry love can lift me out of it.
thanks for listening.
xoxo
angela