Mistress Tonie's blog: "Poetry"

Mystical

Maidens, Wizards, Dragons. They all exist whether most want to admit it or not. I see them as vividly as I see the sky on a warm winter's day. The day of sorcery is returning. The time has come to gather. To gather back to once we all came. Is it true you ask. Yes my friend it is. Come let me show you. Look upon the gray sky. Do you see that? The movement that is not of the clouds? Do you feel that brush of air amongst your skin when there is no wind? Do you feel the change of energy around you? That my friend is the time of magic. Of believing before you see. Of experience of the unknown. The tails of dragons whipping across the sky miles away. The darkness that comes when there is no storm rising. Come and take the hand of thou that will show you the way. One day all that you know will no longer exist. It will cease to be. There will be no electric. Nothing man made will work. Technology will no longer be. It is coming and you will see. When it happens will you then believe me and not think I am crazy? I hope so and then I will still be there and we will go unto others that show an energy so pure together. We play games of magic and believe then but why is it so hard to believe that it is so real? Must one show you what it is for you to believe? There will be many to deal with all elements and be able to manipulate them. Others will be able to control fires. Some will have the power of God's. What will you be able to do? Can you handle that which you will be give? I am today and always seer one that knows what will happen and probably how. Can you accept my visions of what is to come? I can. Will you follow me into the next world of tomorrow? Will you fight when the time comes by my side? I will fight amongst my friends and by their sides. I will bring the visions of tomorrow to them. My gifts expand and I will fear them no more. I bring the message of the future to all to hear. Listen to my voice and know that what I say is real, is true. I would not lead you astray as so many before me has done to you. You will be safe and you shall be strong. I will be the healer of healers among our cities. Old cities will be destroyed and safety will be sought out by all. New cities will be built. Walls made by those that need no weapons or tools. Castle will come to life. Built as no other that has ever been seen. But much death will we all see. Many will come to us, to our city, not knowing what to expect. New found gifts upon them how to use them a mystery. Auras will glow brightly. A king will be crowned again. One for every city from miles around. But who will hunger for the power to control all? Someone will just to destroy all that has been given again.


Silence

I sit alone pondering the road my life has taken. The wind blows through the curtains and windows. Birds chirping outside with the song of spring rising. My mind seems clear but not clear enough to make the decisions within my life that matter. I believe I know what I want. Then something happens and I am undecided again. I don't know what to do at times. I love and then I am not sure how. I wonder at times what my purpose in life is. I have always thought that the purpose that my life had taken was that of helping others. I help yet I receive nothing in return and I expect nothing either. I just wish that those around me in my life would just say thank you. Thank you for everything that you do. For making dinner so everyone is fed. Thank you for washing clothes so that we put clean clothes upon our bodies. Dinner was good. I would like to hear the words that I am appreciated by those that I do things for. Will I ever hear those words? Probably not. Will someone ever thank me for the things that I do for others? I expect not. But my thanks comes from a higher power. A power that gave me life. A power that has made me what I am. Do I need thanks from those around me? No but I want it just to hear the words. Just to know that others care about what I do for them. It is nice to be recognized for what you do for others. It is nice to know that you are appreciated. It is not required that thanks or appreciation are given but it is common curtasey for the things people do for you or you do for them. I don't know what to do all the time and I don't always have the answers. But I show the appreciation and thanks for what people do for me. It is hard to do for everyone else. I just don't know how to put myself before others. I know that not everything is easy but I am trying to put myself first for the first time in my life.
Love

There are so many times in ones life that they can feel so lost. I know that I do. However have you ever sat down and watched something upon the television or seen something as you walked down the street and it made you stop and think of what you have or who you are? I do that several times in a week. At times the trials that I have gone through I am helped to embrace them by something I see on the television or something I see as I walk down the street. I enjoy watching anything that is based upon truth. Those are the movies that really hit home and help me deal with the things that I have went through in my life. Well here are some words that might make even the hardest person stop and think about their own life. These words might even bring a tear to their eyes.
Love
What is love? Love is the feel of a new born baby laid upon the chest of a new mother. Love is the butterflies the flutter in ones stomach when you look into the eyes of someone. Love is giving when you have nothing to give. It is the pride of a parent when a child has done nothing yet everything all in the same breath. Love is standing by someone, not behind them or in front of them. Love is being selfless to the needs of others around you. It is the words that comfort people even when they don't think they need it. It is the sparkles of the stars that shine when you have given up and dig a little deeper knowing there has to be more. It is the feeling of accomplishment when you didn't think you could do it. The inspiration of the breeze and the scent of flowers upon the grass. The bloom of everything new in the spring. The cold of the rain upon the face of beauty. The winter snow upon the roof that forms ice cycles off the edges. It is the grace upon which one walks. The stride in the sprint of ones legs upon the gravel. Love is so many things yet nothing at all. I love. Maybe to much or maybe not enough. But my heart is always in the right place. Even when others don't see it. It is the sacrifice of what you want for someone else's happiness.
Poetry
Thoughts racingNo end in sightTurmoil destinedTo Destroy
Comfortable?UnknownSafe?Unknown
Am I where I belong?Is there more than what I see?Is there places that hold my future?Lost
Hello?Is there anyone there?Where are you?Who are you?
VoicesEchosVisionsUnclear
Am I really hearing people?Do my ears deceive me?Are my eyes playing tricks?Am I seeing what is before me?
Turning within one circleNo beginningNo endFollowing never leading
Eyes please don't fail meEars listen carefullyHeart don't lie to meSoul be true
Nothing makes senseEverything jumbled within meTricks and games is what I feelAre these feelings true?
Have I failed?Did I lose?Is this my fate?What do I do?
I know questions are only answered by the one that holds themBut how do I know what the answer is?Will I find it?Will it elude me as it always has?
Confusion is not what I have known before nowLost is not what I am use toUnsure is not what needs to beI just don't know
I am feeling feelings of despairFeelings of confusionOf lostOf unsafe
I need to relive what once wasWhat happened thenWhere did it lead me?Am I being punished?
Were my decisions wrong then?Are they wrong now?Are the shoes I fill to big?Is this what is meant for me?
I need clarityI need contentmentI need soul searchingI need destiny to reveal itself to me
Poetry
Tonight there is silenceNo words spokenNo sounds to be heard
Darkness encircles meNo light to be seenBlindness over takes me
Do I search for the sounds once more?Do I search for the light I once had?What do I do?
Have I found something that only other eyes can see?Will I ever know what there is to see?Will I hear that which I once did?
Sometimes we don't cherish what we haveThen it is goneNo longer to be had
I hate my gifts at timesNow I feel them slipping awayI want them
How do I gain what I have lost?Or have I really lost what I had?Is this just a test that I must pass?
Going on is what I haveEyes of a child in growthEars of the child within
I need so muchI want so muchI wait in the open to receive what I need to have
WaitingPatienceWondering
AmazementWonderSight
Fore sight of what is to comeThe sounds of the past and the futureEverything the way it must be
I am the visionaryThe one that leads those around meThy who brings clarity
I see that which I shouldn'tI hear that which isn't talked aboutI am me
Unique in ways that can't be explainedThings that can't be understoodThings left in the dark
Everything will be explained when the time is rightEverything that has been said will be understoodThings will be enlightened
To Morgan

In battleWe will fightSide by side
The gates of HellWill openThe wrath of GodWill come down
TogetherWe willSurviveAnd Die
A furyThat none will understandThey will ignore usUntil all is said and done
To sides of the coinHeads and talesOpposites of each otherThe same together we will be
Come stand with me once againA love so strongNo one can destroyOur destiny is ours
Protection is yoursIf you wish itI will protect youIn the end it will be us
Fight with meAs our destiny has shown usI am uniqueAs are you
People said we were destinedTo be destroyedWe have come so farTo give up now
Walk with me againTalk with natureAs we once didMorgan La Fey
A love of powerOf strengthOf destinyOf hope
Missing you I doUnderstand I don'tYou have leftWill you now return?
One dayAfter many yearsWe will reuniteTogether we will fight
Taking on goodAnd evilWe mustAre you up for the fight?
Come to me my daughterMy MorganMy petMy friend
Reunite with meAs you always haveDon't disappearAs you always do
A good bye hurtsA heart is crushedMy love still growsYet pain resides within me
Come MorganBack to meCome againOne we will be
Rambles of the flowing words that have been given

Twisting and turningSwirling around within my selfThoughts racingQuestions invading
Yelling, talking, screamingWho's there?I see people around meYet I see no one
Where am I?Who am I?Am I dead?Am I alive?
Problems solvedNew ones ariseWhat do I do?Where do I go?
No one to trustNo one to talk toSecrets buriedNever to be spoken
My heart in turmoilOver love?Over nothing?
I know what I have doneI know who I have helpedI know my callingYet I am lost
Lost within my selfLost to societyLost to a life of fearLost to everyone and every where around me
What do I want?Where do I want to be?Who do I want to be with?How do I love?
Dancing aloneSitting aloneTalking aloneYelling alone
I want someone to want meI need someone to love meI need to be heldI need to be with someone
I want everythingNo more unhappinessNo more feeling unwantedI want a family
FriendsWhat are they?Who are they?Are they real?
Is all I have is the spirit world?Should be enough?Should I want more?Am I selfish?
Will I find my destiny?What is my destiny?Where is my soul mate?Was he right?
He said many thingsIs the past to repeat itself once again?Can I change it?Will someone be damned for eternity?
Is it fair that I want to die?Will I die alone?Will those who say they are my friends really mourn me?Will they throw a party once I am gone?
Will she come home?Will she hate me?Is this what should be?Will this be a mistake?
Can I love?Can I be loved?Is it hard to love me?Why is it so hard for me to love?
Am I only to always give?Will I never receive?Will I never show for anything that I have done?Where am I going?
I know not many thingsYet I know what most do notI want to be open with others and let them know what I seeBut I know that it will scare them away
I am fearful of what is to comeI am terrified of who I amI am scared of what I can doI don't want to hurt those around me
I bring pain to those I touchI bring fear to others when I speakI hurt the hearts that love meI break that which is given to me
I want to changeAnd change has befallen meCan I accept it?Will I embrace it?
What river shall I float down?Which street will I cross next?Where will I live tomorrow?Am I worthy to have that which is given to me?
I hate myselfI hate the worldI hate what I have becomeI hate what the world is
I want to change itI don't know howWhere will I begin?How will I do it?