hot mama's blog: "Ramblings of a hot mama"

I've been thinking alot lately, which can be quite dangerous for me. I'm coming up on the 2yr mark of when the kids and I left my ex. We've been staying with my parents because of my crazy early morning work schedule. I've noticed lately my mom making comments here and there about us having our own place someday. Which I completely and totally agree, we NEED our own place. My problem is I can't afford a place on my own, plus how would I balance work and getting the kids off to school? So, logical thinking is I need to find a roommate and move out. Only problem with that is there's nobody around here that I can trust with my kids. Plus I've been at my job for 12yrs and I don't wanna go looking for something else to fit the kids school schedule. Even though I have sole custody and physical custody of the kids, my ex has already told me that he'll fight me tooth and nail if I try to move out of state. I'm not sure if he would have a leg to stand on in court and I don't like confrontation so I honestly don't want to deal with him. I'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place cuz I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. I want to move and get out on my own, but I just don't know what to do anymore.