Over 16,508,974 people are on fubar.
What are you waiting for?

SweetDreams's blog: "about me"

created on 01/28/2008  |  http://fubar.com/about-me/b182668

Consumed

I've let something consume me for so long that I forgot who I was. I thought the attention was wanted, that I was wanted. How do you say you love someone and not see them in your future? I feel so very lost, and have no one to turn to for answers. No one to show me the way back to myself. And yes, even though I am a strong independent woman, I need to be guided. To be lead, to be corrected gently, to be taught, and loved, and wanted. To be able to submit freely, and to be appreciated for it. I know how this will be taken, if it is ever read by the person it is intended for. I know how He will view this. Lack of finding fault in Himself, because He feels He forewarned me. FUCK FOREWARNING! Live for today, be happy with what you have.. bullshit. I want more.. ok.. I said it. I want the fairytale ending. I want to be able to say I am so truly loved, that when people hear my voice they know its true. I want happily ever after.. I've allowed You to consume my thoughts, and made you a priority in my life.. I've overwhelmed myself, my head, and my heart with the "what if's". I feel I have gone beyond and above the norm, to make this work. The problem is, I'm the only one that seems to give a flying fuck on whether or not it works. I'm hurt, my pride is hurt, my head throbs, my heart aches, and you laugh and say.. " Told ya so". How did I get so consumed by You? I don't see my life without You in it.. but I am no where in Yours.. How can a person love someone so completely that it effects their whole being, and the other is only slightly amused at the entire ordeal? I know You love me.. in some form. I know You say You are "in love" with me... again, it's in some form. What it isn't however, is forever.
Leave a comment!
html comments NOT enabled!
NOTE: If you post content that is offensive, adult, or NSFW (Not Safe For Work), your account will be deleted.[?]

giphy icon
last post
12 years ago
posts
21
views
7,006
can view
everyone
can comment
everyone
atom/rss

recent posts

12 years ago
A new day
15 years ago
If I could
15 years ago
a poem
15 years ago
Tired
15 years ago
25 questions
15 years ago
TO be Beautiful
15 years ago
Consumed
15 years ago
Have you ever?
15 years ago
The girl I am

other blogs by this author

official fubar blogs
 8 years ago
fubar news by babyjesus  
 13 years ago
fubar.com ideas! by babyjesus  
 10 years ago
fubar'd Official Wishli... by SCRAPPER  
 10 years ago
Word of Esix by esixfiddy  

discover blogs on fubar

blog.php' rendered in 0.05 seconds on machine '191'.