DragonMaster Fears None's blog: "Confussion"

I guess there comes a time in any realtionship, wether it be in real life or an online (see how it works) relationship were, if it does not seem to be either going anywhere orjust seeems to be breaking down around you, you have to finally let go......... well I have,regardless if it is what I want or not.......common sense has to kick in and when the other person says to you its time to let go then you know that it is.......so I have.....with a very heavy heart I have just said goodbye to the one person I can truely say I really loved anywhere......I doubt wether she will get to read this......who knows but it gets to the point where the pain and heartache gets just too much...knowing just how you feel and knowing that you want that person so bad that even that hurts too.......time will heal.....the pain will stop...the tears will dry.... but the memory will still remain of just how special she was to me....... To that person..should you read this by some small miricle......take care...good luck and I hopeyou really do find the one who can give you all that you want, need and desire............ Good Bye Baby

Ok the best way I can find of telling you all why I am sad is because someone who really did mean a lot to me on this site has left....the lil bird has finally flown............but I guess it was bound to happen at some point and I guess I may have to wait to see if what they say is true...if it was meant to be or not.......yeah I am gonna be a little down for a bit.......but I will live.....but for now maybe if I could be left alone I would be really greatful....thank you

I sometimes wonder just how many feelings we go through in just one day. So many fellings that never go away, this rollercoaster called life can deal so many feelings our way. The hurt and pain, will I ever love again. Look there you are , please speak to me again, any second now they will say hello, why oh why did you have to go. For just one moment to be alone, Just us two, theres no one else at home, rushing here, rushing there, no time to talk now, Give me a while and then I will be free, then nothing. Dejection, rejection,down into the depths I go once more. Then there it is, hello how are you and how was your day, all the hurt starts to go away. How long will it be this time five minutes or will it be ten and then you will go once again. Long days and longer nights til we speak again, or shall we just sit waiting......while else where the attention is grabbed, so much going on but nothing really matters.....game or real.. I look at you day after day waiting, watching, Hoping and praying that this will be the day...yet still nothing....... is it misguided, scared of inner feelings..of the rush, the speed..anguish and despare, antisipation and intrepidation surround yet still waiting and watching from a far....should I leave the door ajar or lock it as I leave!

It was once said that if you love something so much and you felt you had to let it go you should......and if it returns to you then it was meant to be, but if it didn't then maybe it was not true love at all.........I guess if we are all faced with this situation most would be frightened to let go in the fear that it would not return...but I guess it is a chance that you have to take......never easy but all the same you have to take that chance........even the old DragonMaster..........and with this.....the little bird is free if it wishes........

Sitting , watching and waiting, slowley the answers come........nothing said and nothing given yet still the answers come, is all that it once seemed, heart and soul, neither seem given, hearing words so sweet they seem but how true they may be, remains to be seen, yet slowly the answers come