I am tired of hiding I am tired of crying.
I am tired of wanting to die and tired of trying.
I would have never known what it is like to die.
I would have never known what it was like to cry.
I would have never known laughter’s true sound
I would have never known what it was like to want to kneel on the ground.
I would have never known what it is like to feel known.
There is always a piece of one with me.
But He doesn’t have to tell me.
Don’t tell me I will regret for your sake; the only regret will be yours.
Leave me alone. Let me stay home. Do not whine and cry. Why can’t he understand?
I do not want to give this another try.
I can not.
I need some one that IS stronger then the earth and sun; for me.
I need someone if I fall will carry me.
I need someone who will be there when I need to lean.
Please, please understand I am not trying to be mean.
It’s just really WHAT ABOUT ME?
So why not take what was once and leave it in the past
Remember, that is what you asked.
Why not let new love have a try?
He makes me laugh never causes me to cry.
The only question left unanswered is why?
Why did I cause tears from the eyes?
Why did I almost let our love die?
Why did I not want to let a sleeping dog lie?
Five years is a long time to try.
It is a long time to wonder why.
So now I believe I will say good bye.
Good bye to being erratically controlled.
Good bye to a life where I always feel old.
Good bye to a life that’s menial and cold.
Good bye to a life that I am small and timid; rather than Tall and Bold.
