jerry's blog: "Lost Serenity"

Dear Jerry.You think by now you would have figured out by now that you are a cursed man.Or are you?Although you do many good things very well you always end up defeated.Why???What is it that you are missing or lacking?Is it the fact that you are the type of person who puts everyone you have let into your life before yourself,even to the point of taking the blame,the fall?Is it the fact that you sacrifice too much in the belief that if you do it will come back to you?You are called an enabler by several inwhich you allow others to take advantage of you.You see Jerry YOU feel that if YOU are or everybodies friend or if You have attributes that other people can draw from it makes YOU look good.YOU fit in.Why do you do that? Has it worked?Is it working?Where are you this morning?Sitting in front of your pc depressed.Actually if you pay a little more attention to YOU and who YOU are YOU wouldn't find yourself where YOU are right now.But see Jerry,in thinking about you I figured something out.YOU are an addict.You have lived the way you have for so long feeling that it will all work out that you don't know who YOU are.If anthing I can tell you here is that YOU are running out of time.The longer you wait the harder its going to be.As with any addiction the hardest part is admitting it.The second is the withdrawal effects.You are so mad at yourself that you fall back into it time and time again.If you don't stop it you will always be defeated.So why don't you today take and make the goal for yourself and take the time,being that you have wasted so much of it and begin to find out who YOU really are.Its not going to be easy,but YOU can do it.Stick with it and your life will turn out all the better.Love yourself first.Then YOU will be able to find what makes life worth living.Trust me!Cos at this point who else can you trust?                                                              Sincerely YOU!!!