Samantha's blog: "My Life"

I was surfing online the whole day been doing it for three straight days. But suddenly now I feel down. I feel sad. I feel angry. I feel annoyed. I feel frustrated. I love watching movies, but now i don't want to watch anything. I always love trying and tasting new food but now i feel sick just thinking of eating. Been suffering insomia for years on and off and this never happened to me before. Guess something out of sync in my body and emotions. Son't like feeling this way. But I can't help myself.  I have an idea of what or who is causing thi but I don't want to tell him so. I have no right to tell him anything. So I guess I just have to endure this mode until this pass.

I want to tell you that I feel this way

But i'm afraid that it might drive you away

Lost you once before

Finding you now means more than the world

I must be content

I must hide what I feel

I'll just have to love you

In my fantasy

Even if it means i'm just words to you

Something you read and react to

It's better this way i should be okey

I don't want to loose you anymore