ItalianHazelEyez Wifey 2 Lowrider85's blog: "Confused"

When you think in your life that you are unhappy....think again. Let me tell you I said I was unhappy for many months. I hurt the one I loved and cared about very much. I realize now I wasnt unhappy at all. Just was scared of getting closer. I didnt want to get hurt. Well now I know. I am unhappy now cause I do not have him. We will work through this and I promise you this....I will never say I am unhappy again. Or take the man I love for granted. I love him so very much.

So I said alot of messed up crap in my past blogs, and for those who know me on myspace....there too. I was going through a sh*tty time so I told alot of false information. For starters we were in love. He always wanted our baby. I know I b*tched alot I I will always be sorry for that. I took him for granted. I know now that he always loved me. I thought I was unhappy being with him, but it was just me pusing him away cause I was afraid. I love him now, always and forever.

the only way we could possibly talk is dropping it 1st. i love hm n do wanna work things out but am so scared this is a trick what should i do?

if he really wants to be with me....he needs to understand why i cant risk it. after mon i will take him back. i promise on my children.

I want him back so much but monday is when it can happen. i cant risk anything cause im walking in court alone. i love him with all my heart so he needs to understand. i hope he does. the songs i hear he used to sing me, the shows we used to watch...all make me cry cause we should be together.

Im in a tight spot right now. I love this man with all my heart but because of circumstances cant talk to him. If he loves me still he would get ahold of me.

Do you all think he still loves me? If he wants to come back all this bs needs to go away.

I cant sleep I cant eat. I think about the one all the dam time. We were soulmates, lovers, best friends. All I do is think about all the special times we had together. Why did he have to hurt me so much? I have never loved anyone as much as I love this one. I have taken him for granted tho, and I think its too late. But I still wonder why all this bad stuff is happening. I am lost and confused.

What does everyone think. I know this couple that broke up. They shared a baby. The guy got with someone else n is raising the baby. The mom is heartsick. What do you think.

I dont know what to do. I love him so much. It hurts that he replaced me in less than 2 weeks. I just dontknow how to feel.