I have had a lot of up's and down's in my life. It has not been easy for me and i think the hardest is not being in a relationship. I gotten tired of bouncing from one relationship to another so i have just decided to stay single. In a chance encounter i met a wonderfull man. We started dating and on the first date is made clear from both of us that we did not want to start a relationship cause he was heading off to iraq. Well something just grew between us and every chance we had to spend with each other we did. In my relationships that i have had in the past after about a yr they fall to shit. So i am in a bit of a pickle at this point in my life. Should i wait a yr till he comes home and just keep in touch with him as i am now then pick up were we left off and see what happens..or should i try to find another to fill the void in my life. In my heart i dont want to start another relationship just to be put in tourmoil when brad gets back. Either way im sure i lose another yr of happiness and at my age it gets harder to live without a mate..to simply put it..IM TIRED OF BEING LONELY
