I usually post my writing in my blogs on another site and perhaps will do that here as well, but thought I'd also use this blog just to post on what's going on with me.
Today is such a strange day. I'm in a mood, or rather, was in a mood that I do not usually experience.
I believe in having confidence- in fact, it's my thing- I always lecture women on it. I'm always shocked by the number of women that have low self esteem, even well established, physically attractive older women who should know better!
I do not care what you look like, what you're good at, what you weigh... everyone should have confidence. Have you ever seen a girl you might not otherwise find attractive but there is something about her that draws a crowd wherever she goes? Her secret? Confidence.
There is always going to be someone better, smarter, prettier, etc. than you. You're always going to have some weakness. You have to remember that everyone has weaknesses and the trick to getting over it is bringing out your strengths. You do that best by having confidence.
I'm not talking about being arrogant, thinking you're better. I'm talking about knowing you are the best you can be and you truly love yourself.
I wasnt always like this- I used to have very low self esteem growing up. Then I realized that the negative energy i was sending out pushed people away. I realized that loving who I was and working on being the best I could be was so fulfilling. And I noticed the change in others around me. Happiness is a choice. Enjoying life, because there are so many things to be happy about, is a choice.
I'm not conceited, but I do take pride in how I look. It makes me feel good to look my best.
But today.... today... I hit a snag. I started questioning myself and how i was perceived by others. UGH. That's a horrible feeling. I'd forgotten just how far that type of thinking could bring me down.
I turned to my very best friend who is the most confident woman I know. She is the type of girl that never projects any insecurities (and yes, everyone has insecurities) unto others. She taught me that confidence is sexy.
She quickly brought me back to the right frame of mind. This is not about being the best because, as she put it, trying to be the best means you think you arent. :)
So I'm back to my happy, confident self. I'm on a crusade to help women gain that confidence, to stop letting themselves get caught in situations that are harmful, to even stop hurting themselves. To teach them that beauty is honestly from within. It's a feeling, a moment... a sudden smile, a slight touch.... it's that loud laugh I hear from across the office, or the silent strength I witness from a family member going through cancer treatment. It's a friend's devotion and an enemy's forgiveness.
And yes, I'm well aware that some men have low self esteem but in my experience, it is usually women plagued by this.
Hopefully, this mood stays gone- those little snags go away... because life's too short to not be happy, to not share your strengths with everyone around you.
