Confused
Unusually perplexed like an oragami
Why is life constantly so hard for me
Turn ofF the sun I'll still shine
But I can't seem to get that in my mind
Not even with your eyes open wide
Could you see my pain inside
I am that son who hasn't won
I'm the one who gets the job done
Impatient but truly GOD fearing
Trustworthy but hard of hearing
I'm like a fly caught in a web
I'm like a teacher who can't spell
I'm like a hiker who doesn't hike
I'm like a pedal without a bike
I am that tree with good roots
I am durable like brand new boots
I am likable and intriguing
I am honest and believing
When one door slams another will open
I answered the knock it went to be
unspoken
I have used and been misused
I love her he loves her and she loves him
Oh now I am really
Confused
Like a twig on the shoulders of a mighty stream
The world around me is not as it seems
Cluttered thoughts like a bag of fog
Stripped of faith like a slautered hog
My agony hurts like salt to an open
wound
My mind wanders like a fly in a crowded room
I am that dream as well as that nightmare
The one to hate but also the one to care
I am handsome and yet ugly inside
I can be that calm river or that rushing tide
Like a stone tossed into a smooth lake
The rippling effects of failure I cannot take
Don't wan't try because I might loose
Don't know which way to choose
That's why I am so
Confused
All my inner motives have no depth at all
Was on my feet at times but back down to a crawl
What does it take to start anew
To rid myself of these worldly blues
Am I me or am I blind and can't see
Are you really there or is it a fantasy
These thing often enter into my thoughts
By our minds being battlegrounds for struggles fought
We wish we may and we wish we might
What really is day what really is night
I stand on top of the world
I am rubbish like a tarnished pearl
I have paid all my dues
Maybe I didn't though that's why I continue to be
Confused
On a dat to day basis life doesn't
seem to real
Having dreams made only to be killed
Even though I'm lonely I am never alone
And yet my life has been long
It will not give ear to loves loud gong
Patience isn't the virtue to mankind
Good things wil come in due time
Trying to get a grip only tore me apart
Wanting to see loves spark
Unwilling to show the inside of my heart
What thrives on my goodwill
What gives your soul a quivering chill
What somebody can I blame
Yesterday and today are one in the same
Am I speaking in some ways of parables
I guess so cause everything I say is a variable
What if the shoe fits like a glove
Is my higherpower really up above
Could we just give life a little more
No I live one that I don't adore
The grass is greener on the other side
That's what they say don't ask me why
I can't cut it so I will go and hide
She is the light that shines so bright
Let your heart go and unlock it alright
I'll be waiting for the day to come
Until then I am gonna lock it up tight
Two precious boys who in whom I adore
The responsibilities and cries I didn't ask for
Two fists two legs and one brain
Are they truly one in the same
Am I crazy have I gone insane
These feelings are truly against the grain
The cities all lit up like the Moulin Rouge
Most of the dead though now you see
why I am undeniably
Confused
My wisdom chokes on my violent curses
That kills my intellect as weel as my poetic verses
Feet that are swift to run to corruption
Hands that need no introduction
Can you fathom my broken dialect
Or should I put it in text
With this bas chord twanging inside of me
My cries are heard indistinctly
I never thought I'd find a woman so ingenious
This relationship is so meaningless
Feeling like armies marching in my chest
Fighting for what they know is best
She sweet as a sugar cube
I just can't deal with her attitude
If you love something just let it go
It might not not come back you know
A tree wihtout root can't survive
Don't chop it down it'll stay alive
If we want a working system of laws
We have to have liberty and justice for all
Having idiological and ethnical
perspectives will help you grow
Theseare essential tools needed to and frow
Enclose me in your rain
Share with me your pain
And will regard with disdain
Thinking before I speak
Will that make me weak
Is something in her eye or is she winking
Are you thinking what I am thinking
Had the world been perfect
I'd have children I didn't neglect
Can you comprhend my english
Maybe not not cause I am speaking thruogh my anguish
Wanting to have someone miss me
Actually I enjoy being lonely
It is never too late
To fix any mistake
When the chips are down my arms are folded
I just go back to the ways I was molded
If you don't suceed try try again
But when will failure come to an end
Prior planning is planning so you can prevail
Devastation is is kept inside like entrails
Filled with self-pride and forced resign
As well as quietude like a mime
Slow to wrath
Quick to grasp
Quick to frown
Slow to laugh
Penetration through the flesh
A sinful nature is what we know best
Now that I sit back and muse
I realize I am undoubtedly
"CONFUSED"
Written By:
A.I.R. 06-04-03
