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I sit here with the music blaring through the speakers, my fingers floating across the keys, my baby at work and I can't help but think about what how wonderful my life is. I have a wonderful husband who loves me dearly and would do anything for me if I ask. I have a wonderful family. I have everything I could possibly think of. I lucky to be alive. I know now that I made the right decisions for my life for me to be where I am right now.
I recently found out that my ex boyfriend who I spent 3 years of my life with was murdered. He was shot multiple times in his apartment by his best friend. He was into some shit that got him in trouble. When I was told I was a mess. I couldn't help but crying. The love of my life stood by my side. Hurting for me and trying to take some of my pain away. He tried to make it easier on me. The family got together on thanksgiving and had a wonderful day. In the back of my head I was still in mourning for the loss of someone who made an impact on my life. But as everyone said... Thank god you left and didn't stay with him. What could have happened if you were there with him? I am thankful to be alive. But now as I sit here and think about it. What am I doing to the man in my life? He sits by and lets me cry and holds me and yet I'm sitting here crying over an ex. He is an ex for a reason.
He told me last night to not forget who I have sitting infront of me and who loves me today. I could never forget the love that we share for a second. He took my world and turned it upside down and shook it around abit... put it right side up again and opened up the blinds to let in the sun shine. Everything seems to just fall into place now.
I love you baby and I could never forget about we share.
I have recieved my closer on my ex's murder. I'm ok now. Life has got to move on and I couldnt ask for a better way to move on but by your side.
