well today i really hurt someone i really love more then anything and i dont know what to do about it i am such a freaking jerk so here i sit at the libaray and yes in fucking tears and i dont care who knows it but the reason for this is i have been talking to people in the yahoo chatrooms and i had 5 or 6 people on my list but i really made her feel like she wasnt good enof for me and i had no right to do that so she told me to leave and i did and alli want to do is run to her and hold her to tight in my arms and tell her how sorry i am but i dont even think she wants me around at this point and if i was going to cheat on her why the fuck would i of marryed her i mean we have been together for about 2 years and we have a wonderful child together and i love them both so much!!! i sent her a number of e mails and messages on here and she wont reply to me so i dont know what else to do i said i am even willing to goto talk to someone us both together to fix our problems in our marrage i am just so inlove with this woman and i feel like such an asshole!!!!
