Brokenmorbidlie's blog: "Cheap wine and Strawberry Gashes"

When I look into those eyes all I can see is the pain and anguish you've been through The trust and love are gone replenished with loneliness and regret Holding on to a past you wish you still had breaking into a thousand pieces holding it in unable to show anyone Feelings of loneliness creeoing in, wanting the love of another, craving that special touch unable to get close Wanting, needing, craving,knowing the happiness that would be Regret as you move on to the next one night stand Questions could I really be happy? maybe this one won't do the same horrible things could there really be another who understands me so well? Can I trust to love another? A deep sinking feeling as the chance slips past left with nothing but a thought of what would've been had I opened up to you feeling as though I've let my 'one' disappear into a dream I once had.

Push it down, shove it in my face pull me right back to you bringing me to this point my heart just breaks how could you leave so far away A promise yet left empty a word taken for granted a pharse that meant so much do you feel it or am I wasting time trying to bring it all back I still love you.

A dreamer lost in a fantasy is nothing more than a dreamer. A warrior without a battle is still a warrior. My heart without you is just a meager broken object with nothing left to give or have. A piece lost forever never to be found I gave it to you, nothing can replace the fast pace at which my heart beats when I hear your voice, nothing can recover my heart from the grasp you hold. Piercing each piece of my soul as you try to run away. Are you really gone? Am I holding on to a memory of who I once gave a fragile heart to? Forever I sing your song of love...This is HEAVEN

A look of confusion, a single tear falls waiting and wondering why Security and promises await Love and devotion wondering why Lost in the spaces between a sense of belonging and the feeling of love Who am I to judge it could be true it could really work. Losing in the battle of love and friendship together we fall. The feelings differ from one to the other The knowing I need this I want this The knowing the love a broken friendship? With both the sense of security with both Should I jump at the first chance hang back and stay cool? A lost sense of all feelings a hopeless romantic with a crushed heart Wondering why