CHARMY BLOOD's blog: "CHARMYS FEELINGS"

WE CAN ALL LOOK AT OUR LIVES LIKE A FILM. WE SEE ON THE BIG SCREEN THE DAY WE WERE BORN WITH OUR PARNETS LOOKING DOWN AT US WITH TEARS IN THEIR EYES AND SMILES THAT ARE FILLED WITH WONDER AND AMAZEMENT. THEY ARE THINKING HOW THEY COULD HAVE MADE SOMETHING AS WONDERFUL AS THIS LITTLE PERSON.

IT TAKES TWO PEOPLE TO MAKE THIS LITTLE PERSON AND IT TAKES ONE TO BRING IT INTO THIS WORLD. THERE ARE MANY THINGS THAT AS THIS LITTLE PERSON GROWS UP THEY GO THROUG. WE CAN ALL AGAIN SEE  THESE ON THE BIG SCREEN. FROM THE FIRST TOOTH FALLING OUT. TO THE FIRST BIKE WE FELL OFF ALL AND GOT THAT BIG BOO BOO AND HAVING MOM AND OR DAD PICKING US UP AND TELLING US TO GET BACK ON THAT BIKE AND TO CALM DOWN WE ARE GOING TO GET IT RIGHT THIS TIME.

BUT, THEN WE HIT THAT AGE WHERE WE START SCHOOL. WE DON'T KNOW WHAT GROUP WE WILL BE IN THE ONE THAT IS THE BULLYS OR THE ONES THAT ARE PICKED ON FROM THE BULLYS. THIS IS WHERE WE LOOK BACK AND THINK REALLY HARD DO WE WANT TO BE A LEADER OR A FOLLOWER.

FOR ME I HAVE TO SAY I WAS NEITHER. I WAS NOT THE NORMAL CHILD. I WAS ONE THE THAT SAT IN THE SHADOWS AND WATCHED. YES, THERE WERE TIMES THAT I HAD ISSUES BECAUSE I WAS DIFFERENT BUT, IT DID NOT LAST LONG MAYBE TIL LIKE THE END OF THE 10TH GRADE.

WHEN I WAS IN THE 11TH GRADE I WAS DETERMINED NOT TO TAKE ANY CRAP FROM ANY ONE AND AS THE LAST TWO YEARS CAME TO A FINISH,  IT  WAS KNOWN THAT I WAS NOT THAT LITLE GIRL ANY MORE THAT SAT IN THE SHADOWS. I MADE IT KNOWN ALSO  THAT I WAS NOT A FOLLOWER I WAS A LEADER. A LEADER THAT WOULD NOT TAKE ANYTHING FROM ANYONE.

I MADE IT PEFECTLY CLEAR THAT YOU COULD DO WHAT EVER YOU WANTED TO ME BUT, IF IT INVOLVED MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS THEN I WOULD PUT A END TO IT. THIS WAS SHOWN SO MANY TIMES WHEN IT ENVOLVED MY SISTER AND MY PARENTS.

THEN ONE DAY I MET THE MAN OF MY DREAMS AND WE HAD OUR OWN CHILD. A BEAUTIFUL SON. HOW I WOULD NOT CHANGE ANY ABOUT HIM FOR THE WORLD. IT WAS KNOWN THAT  WHEN I WOULD COME WALKING IN THE SCHOOL THE PRINCIPLE WOULD WALK OUT THE BACK DOOR. I LEFT IT KNOWN VERY EARLY IN THE YEAR THAT I DO NOT LIKE FOR ANYONE TO MESS WITH MY SON.

THEN YEARS LATER I HAVE SOMEONE ACT LIKE A FRIEND AND WHO I REALLY FELT SORRY FOR TO WHERE I WAS ACTUALLY TRYING TO HELP THEM FIND A JOB, TELL THEM AS A FRIEND THAT IF ANYONE WAS EVER MESSING WITH MY HUSBAND THEY WOULD HAVE TO FACE ME. AND WELL, THAT SAME PERSON I TOLD THIS TO WAS HAVING A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY HUSBAND.

WHEN, MY HUSBAND CAME CLEAN AND TOLD ME EVERYTHING, I CONFRONTED THE OTHER PERSON AND YOU KNOW WHAT SHE HUNG THE PHONE UP ON ME. WELL, THATS ALL GOOD BECAUSE IT TAKES A WOMAN AND A MOTHER TO FIGHT FOR WHAT IS HERS. AND WELL, I NEVER LOST. IT IS JUST THAT THERE ARE WOMAN WHO PREY ON MEN THAT WONT TO DESTROY THEIR LIVES.

I WILL WARN EVERY WOMAN ON HERE THAT WHEN A PERSON SAYS TO YOUR HUSBAND THAT THEY WANT TO HANG OUT DONOT THINK IT IS INNOCENT. IT MAY BE FOR WHAT YOUR HUSBAND WANTS BUT, ITS NOT WHAT THE WITCH WANTS. SHE WANTS A BOOTIE CALL. SHE IS SO DESPERATE THAT SHE WILL TELL THEM ANYTHING TO MAKE THEM FEEL SORRY FOR HER.

I HAVE NEVER HAD A ISSUE WHERE I COULD NOT HANDLE MY BUSINESS. AND TO BE PERFECTLY HONEST WITH ALL THE REAL WOMEN ON HERE DON'T TAKE THE SHIT WHERE THE LYING SHE DEVIL TELLS YOU SINCE YOU COULD NOT GIVE YOUR MAN WHAT HE WANTS I DID, THAT IS BULLSHIT.

IT SEEMS LIKE THE LITTLE GIRLS HIT UP THE OLDER MAN. THEY WANT A SUGAR DADDY. AND THEY THINK THEY CAN GET WHAT EVER THEY WANT AS LONG AS THEY PLAY THE GAME RIGHT. YOU ALL JUST HAVE TO FIGHT FOR WHAT IS YOURS.  AND SEE IF YOU READ THIS YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHY I SAID THIS IS LIKE A FILM.

BECAUSE EVERYDAY THERE IS A NEW MOVIE THAT PLAYS OUR LIVES OVER AND OVER AGAIN. IT JUST HAPPENS THAT WE ARE NOT PLAYING OUR TRUE SELVES IN THE PARTS. BUT, THINK ABOUT IT ALSO. WITH THESE MOVIES WHO LOSES AT THE END OF THEM. IT IS ALWAYS THE LITTLE GIRL THAT CAN NOT PLAY THE GAME AND WHO IS BACKED INTO THE CORNOR WISHING THAT SHE NEVER MESSED WITH THE MAN WHOS WIFE IS READY TO BUST HER ASS AT NO COST.

SO, YES WHEN ALL THIS IS DONE IT WILL DIE LIKE EVERY OLD MOVIE DOES. AND WHEN IT DOES A NEW BEGINNING WILL START THE NEXT DAY. ALL BAD THINGS DIE AND FROM THE DEATH OF THE DESTRUCTION THAT HAS BEEN CAUSED A REBIRTH WILL HAPPEN. THE REBIRTH OF A LOVE AND RELATIONSHIP THAT HAS BECAME STRONGER THEN EVER. AND IT IS THAT REBIRTH THAT MAKES IT ALL CLEAR.

THE REBIRTH OF A MARRIAGE AND THE REBIRTH OF A MAN AND WOMANS LOVE THAT IS SO STRONG THAT NOTHING WILL EVER COME BEWTEEN THEM AGAIN.

SO LADIES DON'T EVER JUST GIVE UP. THERE ARE MANY FACTORS THAT HAVE TO BE CONSIDERED. AND IF YOU HONOR YOUR VOWS THAT YOU GAVE MANY YEARS AGO TO ONE ANOTHER LIKE I DO. NOTHING AND NO BODY CAN TEAR YOU APART. YES, MISTAKES ARE MADE BUT THERE IS ALSO FORGIVENESS THAT CAN GE GIVEN AND A HEART THAT CAN BE HEALED. JUST REMEMBER THAT SPECIAL DAY WHEN YOU GAVE YOURSELF TO ONE ANOTHER. AND IF YOU DO IT WILL MAKE YOU STRONGER AND YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT EVER AGAIN.

SO, LETS CONSIDER THIS THE END OF THIS MOVIE. AND LETS BURN IT TO ASHES. SINCE EVERYTHING IS REBORN FROM ASHES I CAN'T WAIT TILL THE REBIRTH OF TOMORROW.