Brown Bear's blog: "Action Without Visions Are Nightmares"

Ever had the feeling someone was trying to tell you something in your dreams? Someone you know in real life. Don't you want to contact them? 

Dream: I don't know where i was but i drove my old car up some stairs into a house my passenger was "Felix the cat's eyes." She looked at me when i saw her in my peripheral view but whenever i wanted to look at here eye to eye her eyes shifted like the cat clock on the wall. She is not as black and white as Felix the cat but she is the Betty Boop of my dreams. She acted as free as me but she was just as insecure as me except when she could keep her careless attitude around me. Ditto. You would have seen the blot she left on the dream, a color scheme of only black and white. Thanxxx. Then there was the car ride with familiar faces all to me and each other. There was not much to this car ride, we were driving at about 150 mph without steering the wheel. I would like to believe that it was a good friend of mine driving named "Bumble Bee" but it wasn't. Some other Douche bag was in the seat, worrying more about what was going on in the car then on the road. I saw people passing by riding on the roofs of their cars, in fact i think i recognized one of the people that had passed by. The car was dark and almost seemed as if we were hanging out in a room of a house if you didn't look out the windows and didn't pay attention to the wind rushing by. There were 5 of us (including me) that sat around watching each other watching, the spider watching all of the events unfold. There was the Envy, the Beautiful, the Socially Recluse, the Arrogant, and the me (hate that word me). I saw a spider not the same spider but a different spider spindle a string for me, to grab, to swing around like a pocket watch. I pressed my finger down at the end of the string and lifted it up with any means. I hypnotized the others around and you would have too because the spider was not just an accessory to the dream but a meaningful part of the entire scheme. And it seems that this would be the part to make people scream but all was silent when i placed the spider on my tongue and let it dance around all in fun. I kissed the Recluse's head and out came the spider starting a web. i wanted to understand why this was happening and that when the beautiful said "I'm going to tell you something." I looked at her and said "Coming from you i know it's going to be negative and i am not going to like what your going to say so you can go ahead and say it but i am going to listen and hopefully i can make it positive again." 
WAKE... 

So far this new year is promising but it showing itself in the most ugly ways. I've been a little heart broken, which shows i can still fall hopelessly in love with someone of who they are weather real or not, but i care too much for those that should be meaningless to me. It seems my biggest problem is that everything means something. When something happens i feel as though it could have something to do with me (I hate that word me.) I've been listening more to people but making everyones world revolve around me. I am my own Sun, not the sun. So to whoever read this far thanx for listening. I appreciate it...