Well, to start off with I'm not too sure on what I'm going to be doing. I have seemed to have fallen into this depression that I'm trying to pull myself out of.
I am happy and satisfied with where I am living at right now. I love being with my Sister's. They have helped me sooo much. You couldn't ask for a better family than the one I have. They have protected me, and have supported me in everything and every decision that I have made. I love you, Kristie and Tera. You are the greatest sisters ever.
The thing is is that I'm debating on going back to my husband or not. He really wants me to come back home, but I'm not sure on what to do. I do want to go back, and I really want to work my marriage out. I love and care for my husband an awful lot. I have let a few things get in between our marriage just as he has done some things that's broke the marriage up, also. Both of us realize now what it is that we need to do to work this out, and we are both willing to do it. My husband is a very good man, but when alcohol comes into the picture he is a totally different person. Just as it affects others in that way, also.
I have a place to go to, and a job that is waiting for me if I decide to move back to Eugene where my husband is. I do have a job now, but it only gives me 5-8 hrs a week. I need to be working more than that. I can't stand to just sit home and do nothing. That's why I've fallen into this depression that I'm in. I'm used to be the one out there working or going to school full-time and paying all the bills.
I have met a lot of really nice people here on CT, and you all have been supportive to me. I really appreciate it. There's a few on here that I'm able to confide in, and it's really hard to find friends like that. Thanks to everyone for everything you have done for me.
Well, it's pretty late here and I'm about ready to fall asleep, so I'm going to go for now. Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read this. I will keep you posted about what I decide to do.
