Well about two years ago when I turned 40 I came to the realization that my life sucked ass and I needed to change a few things, my friends told me that I was just having a mid-life crisis. I accepted this and thus took the following actions.
I was living in this small little town where everyone is stuck in 1955, and collectively could not come up with one progressive thought. It was my boyfriend's home town, we hadn't even lived there for a year yet and I hated it. So, I decided to move back to the place I call home and get my old job back. I moved and then shortly there after broke up with Dingdong. That was solutions number one and two of my mid-life crisis.
I recently made life changing decision/solution number three. I've decided to quit my job and get something else. I live in a college town and manage one of the busiest restaurants in town. We just recently expanded and opened a new store. Other than the year I was gone with Dingdong, I've been with this company for about 5 years. The hours are long and suck. I work 12-14 hours a day usually 6 days a week. I'm absolutely exhausted, and I just had a vacation where I did nothing for nine days. I am completely unhappy and not only do I not have any quality of life, but have no life outside of work. I don't like coming home everyday at 3 or 4am, in a very foul mood. I don't get a chance to see my fiance or my friends and am usually too tired to do anything but sleep on my day off. Everything else in my life is great! I met a wonderful man that is madly in love with me and I him. We have a fantastic relationship based on mutual love, trust and respect. Almost 5 months ago he proposed and I happily accepted. I just want some time to enjoy the rest of my life, have a little fun and do the things that I love. After having had three heart attacks the first of which was shortly before I turned 30, I know that I need to relax and stop and see the roses let alone smell them.
I'm feel as though a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and feel relieved that soon I will be able to have a life again. I can do more theater stuff with my friend the Mad Muse who started Mad Muse Productions. We did Rocky Horror on Halloween and it was so much fun, a huge hit, a lot of work, but a blast none the less. I'm also looking forward to spending more time with Dave and my soon to be stepson Dillon.
I felt so good that I spent most of the day cleaning my apartment, I mean really cleaning, washing walls etc. Now everything is in order, and I feel confident that 2007 is going to be great!!
Well, I feel that I've rambled enough for now. Everyone have a wonderful new year!!
