Well to those of you who noticed i was gone, I failed at the ultimate check out. I know it was wrong, but there was a huge pain my heart and i wanted it to go away forever. Of course, my higher power sent an angel and I was taken to the hoepital before the job was done. I have a lot of angels in my corner and I wasn't willing to let them in. I know there is a lot more to life than the jerk who left me. I know i'm an idiot for still wanting him and loving him. I just wish the pain would stop so I can be free of this agony he keeps sending me everytime he criticizes me and what I became in the last two years. When he said I might not bew the best mother for our son I lost it and figured it would be best if I just move out of the way. Well since I am the one at the keyboard, then we all know I failed on this attempt as well. God please help this man to find his happiness, since I am not it.
