jC in the sky w diamonds's blog: "Can yall help?...."

Omgosh this year has been crazy nuts. Things just seem to keep getting more crazy. i hope everyone is having a happier holiday season than. i crave men like i crave clamidia, or genitl warts..... boys lie and are dumb!!! or i should say i need to learn to make better choices! i guess its all just about learning the fact of life! Life lessons! Learn move on and be happy... be real dont be "used car sales men that walk yll around in circles" and ppl really wonder why im gay??? lol

Hi y'all =) I just wanted to let everyone know that I am gone for a week in Phoenix, AZ. I may or maynot be online. Just know I will be back and thanks everyone for the sweet ass emails, letter, gifts ect. They make me feel really good! Love, ~me~

I know this may sound silly but ive always wanted a blast... i see ppl thank everyone everytime does someone have to buy someone a blast, or do yall have a "silent auction" and it goes to the hightest bidder. sorry im suh a douch just curious as to how yall do it?? thank you?

Ok here is the deal. One of my many sisters is going out on a date this comming weekend. The deal is that she has to bring somene with for the guy shes datings friend. Of course as my sister said you dont have to do anything. The odd part about it is that the guy my sister is going out with said that it had to be one of her sisters that had to go out with the friend?? Im grown i can take care of myself.. but here is the dilema. I really dont want to go but then again it is my sister??? what do yll think? or what would yll do???

oK SO I WENT 4 MY LAST BOUT OF CHEMO TODAY. I CAME HOME AND COLAPSED!! I JUST WOKE FROM LIKE A LIL UNDER A 9 HOUR NAP. I AM JUST SO HAPPY TO BE DONE WITH IT. IVE BEEN "THE SAD HORMONAL" END OF MY PERIOD CRYING TODAY..ANDI HATE THIS. I REALLY THINK I WOULD REATHER BE CRABBY BECAUSE I MADE A HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE MISTAKE TODAY LIKE I DID ABOUT 4 MONTHS AGO I DID THE SAME THING. I REALLY HOPE THAT LOVE DOESNT RUN ANY DEEPER THAN WHEN I GET CHEMO SAPPY!!!! SORRY JUST RAMBLING...

i previously wrote about being leary about being at my ex's tonight but the one thing he hates more than short hair is jet black hair. a friend of mine came over and said just do it. and i did. personally its gonna take some getting used o i guess if i decide to keep it.. but i know he wont even look my way twice with it like this hahaha jokes on him if he had alterior motives!!!!

~My ex called me the other night & asked if he could see our son on Halloween. We live a good hour apart. So he suggested that I bring our son down there so when he gets off work our son can go trick or treating with my step son as well. (fyi i still see my step kids on a reg basis they are both 13). I really didnt want to but I didnt want to deprive my son of seeing his dad or brother. i asked my son if he wanted to and he said yes. Then my step son asked if we (his brother and i) stay over at his daddys house. So now Im locked in and will be under the same roof as the man i was married to for 7 yrs for the first time in 4 yrs. my ex atleast lives with a common friend of ours brad and he is chill so im cool. But i dont know why it just feels off. but oh well i guess well just see how it goes.... i just cant stomach my ex at all. i hope everyone else has an awesome halloween! ttys ~me~

Ok i have not been asked this so many times in my life until this past year. Ever since the break-up of a long term long distance relationship where my x was in Iraq and I was faithful Ive resorted back more to women. Not that I have never not been attracted to women BUT I was with someone so I didnt even look at anyone else that way.. ok im lying i still look at beautiful girls. It was funny for the first time my great gramma said to me on sunday jam why do yll always refer to dreah as ur ex-girl. why cant you call her your girlfriend?? Thats when one of my big mouth mama's yells gramma she swings both ways. My gramma gave methis look yll would die if u seen. She smirked moved away and said jami yll arent picturing me naked are yall??? Seethats what ppl dont get just because you can be attracted to someone of the same sex they think yll are like a purse and a wallet just because both are the same color they go together. To be quite honest ould be the same as me saying ok you random guy ur straight right ok and you random girl you 2 are perfect together because your both "straight"? Wtf ppl??? I dont consider myself one or the other. i consider myself "me" or NOnE OF YOUR GOSH DAMN BIZ!!!! If Im interested in yll care if your a man or woman, black or white, mixed, asian, or latino, I dont go out "looking" for one nor the other. Last I checked ppl are each their own person! I dont expect yall to understand but to judge me....im over it! it see yll have the problem not me... and its you who is missing out on one hell of a person/friend/lover! (sigh) feel better now! sorry uncle tom and auntie flow are driving in for their monthly visit so Im not to thrilled if yll can imagine!

IT COMES FROM AN OLD BARBARA STRISAND MOVIE WHERE SHE AND HUMPHREY BOGART HAVE AN AFFAIR. BUT SHE LOVES HIM SO MUCH THAT SHE WALKS AWAY AND THE MOVIE ENDS WITH "YOUR LADY IS LOVELY HUBBLE (bogart)". Basically means that yll are willing to give up what means most to yll for somene to be happy .... thats the kind of person i want to be with. like in the bible there is a tale of 2 women claiming to be the same childs mother. to find out who the real mother was god said you can each take 1/2 of the baby. when the woman started pulling on the baby one woman let go and said she could not stand to see her child hurt she cared to much forhim so she gave the child to the to the other woman who was clearly not the mother. if that makes any sence..

HEY YALL MY L8ST HANDLE IS "YOUR GIRL IS LOVELY HUBBLE"........ IF YOU CAN GIVE ME THE PROPERY MEANING.. WHAT IT STANDS FOR OR WHAT IT REPRESENTS U COULD BE THE PERSON OF MY DREAMS AND WOULD LIKE TO TALK TO YALL MORE... IF YLL THINK YOU KNOW PLEASE RESPOND..... BTW GOOGLING IT OR ASKJEEVES IS GONNA BE A DEAD GIVE AWAY YLL HAVE NO IDEA AND ARE JUST TAKING A SHORT CUT. I WANT SOMEONE WHO TRUELY GETS IT. IVE ALWAYS SAID IM AN OLD SOUL IN A YOUNG PERSONS BODY.... IM CURIOUS TO SEE IF SUCH PERSON EXHISTS??? AND OR WILL TAKE THE TIME?