soldierboymichael's blog: "Unwanted Soldier"

Ive been posed with a question lately that i just cant seem to answer. Everytime i meet a nice girl she always asks me "Why is a great guy like you still single?" I really  never have a good answer. I mean i dont want to be single, i dont like being single, as far as i know theres nothing wrong with me, heck i even make a stupid amount of money....but for some reason I just cant seem to find the right girl. After i got back from the war i lost my woman, and needed some time off, i chose to be single for a while...but since i started looking again, i just seem to never be able to find anyone who wants to stay around for any amount of time. I guess lately ive just been thinking that maybe there is something wrong with me and the girls just are too nice to tell me, how many times can you hear....Im just not ready yet, or its not you its me...before you start to realize they are just lines from someone trying to spare your feelings. Ive been trying to evaluate myself a lot lately, and see what is just so wrong with me that even though i fought, and saved, and almost died so many times, that i still havent found a way to earn my own happiness....so many loosers, and jerks that beat girls , and dont appreciate them have the sweet, good girls, that i have always wanted. I spent so much of my life living to protect others, fighting for god and my country, that i feel like i lost my life, and while everyone else was out making a life and family , i lost my chance because i was trying to fight and survive for a country that i love.....for so long i was willing to die so that everyone else can sleep safe in thier beds....but now what? its over and im home...its like no one really cares....liek i was just a story, and now the storys over, i think so often...was i supposed to die...was i really meant to come back home? I just wish to god i knew what was wrong with me so that maybe i could fix it...ok well im done with this blog...im not trying to be all self pittyish, i just really needed to get my thoughts out....thanks to anyone who took the time to read this....god bless you.

Michael...the forgotten soldeier...