Let it out. Don't be afraid to cry, don't be afraid to get angry. Yes, I asked "Why!?", Yes, I wanted him alive so he could see the suffering and pain he caused,.... yes, I prayed and prayed and prayed until my head hurt and I came to realize that this was not an act of God but of man. WE create these people who are bullied, ignored, hated, or abused. Each time we walk by someone hurting and choose to not see them or scoff at their very existence we give them just one more reason to hate themselves enough to want any and everybody around them hurt or dead.....much like they are inside. What seeds do we sow? Even a polite "hello" and half hearted smile means so much more than a crude look of distain. WE shoot people in the heart when we choose to not acknowledge someones presence. People scream to be seen, people act out to be acknowledged. We should be reaching out to them before they reach for something dangerous. People who kill often times have nothing to lose because they have been for some time. *Just my thoughts through this pain.