I know I shouldn’t but I do
I wait for your call
Frozen by the phone, life on hold
You have become my obsession, my self-esteem
I know I shouldn’t rely on you
I should create my own strength
But you make me smile, my heart patter
I want to open to you, give myself over
You give me smiles, I give you lust
You keep coming back despite it all
Enabling my barriers, my obsession
I shouldn’t be so withdrawn
You deserve more then I have to offer
You give so much more then I
How long can it last, go on as such
How long until you discard me
As do they all, leave me crushed
All alone to wallow in my despair
To wonder if I’m worth it, what I deserve
I know I shouldn’t, but I do
