porcelain's blog: "Broken"

broken girl in a broken home with a broken dream and a broken nose a broken promise by a broken dad when a broken hit left her broken and mad so she took broken razors to make more broken skin to repair a broken lifestyle and make a new one begin now under broken stars and a broken old moon she finds a half broken answer to make her problems end soon so she takes her dads gun and a broken old shell and loads it up quick so that no one could tell no broken goodbyes to make it end quick just a small broken smile and a small little click holding it high to her head her face broken with tears theres nothing to be scared of so fuck broken fears out comes broken dad to make things all better hes one second to late theres blood on his sweater cbass

you tease and its not fair. to get a girl's hopes up then act like you don't care. to treat me like gold and then pretend I'm not there. if you saw the look on my face you just could not bare. i fell for you, yes and this i can swear, that the bond that we have is special and rare. that tone in your voice, and that look in your stare. but its so hard to save something that hasn't a prayer. so many sleepless nights spent in a room alone where i prepare for the pain from the heart that you tear.

i cant think of words to describe how i feel your touch your scent your everything the way you tease is torture and oh the things i would do to you if you were here you've got my mind racing i cant even form a sentence hands on hips neck to lips and my god do you know what to do i haven't felt this crazy before you have a hold on me there's something about the thrill of the game i don't know if I'm ready to accelerate and i don't think you are either but thats okay i care i feel for you and i hope you feel the same its just that the way you touch me makes me melt into a puddle of my own desire these feelings are strong but are not meant to scare you just know what i am feeling and tell me you feel this way too

1 hour 5 hours 9 hours it all goes by so fast when im taking to you i know i feel a connection do you feel it too? when you leave, a part of me leaves with you. its so strange i cant even put into words how you make me feel. racing thoughts and butterflies dreams of you coming out of the computer and into my arms. ive never felt this way before. i dont know how to react. i cant believe i have fallen for someone so sweet so arousing so far away. 10 hours 11 hours half a day goes by and i cant help but think i wouldnt want to spend it with anyone other than you

i fold to the sound of your voice but your breath still tastes like poison every kiss every touch every night spent in your arms reminds me of how destined i am to be alone don't let go i can't stand on my own don't touch me your fingerprints stain my skin but for gods sake don't let go your hold offers bitter sweet company i cant describe how you make me feel the way you make my heart flutter and my stomach drop at the same time the lips of the devil your lips have brushed my skin you kick me when I'm down skinned knees and broken dreams no good comes from your love and yet i keep going back for more

one time two times three spin her around until she cant see one time two times three times four spin her around 'till she falls to the floor isn't she lovely as she downs the whole glass vomiting on cue her definition of class she wakes up the next morning to find stains on her dress the air thick with cheap alcohol the apartment's a mess what the hell happened? but there's no where to begin except with that pill those boys happened to slip in- to the drink on the counter that she held in her hand and soon, within minutes she could no longer stand they touched her yes, thats what the boys did they defiled a girl when she was still just a kid she now lies awake in a dimly lit room with the thought of the child that is growing in her womb why me? what did i do to deserve this she cries it was one simple mistake that ruined so many lives she can't handle this her cup of innocence has bee spilt so she picks up the gun she can't deal with the guilt she cocks the gun back and opens her mouth wide she quickly pulls the trigger killing her and the baby inside

I feel, Signs of this cancer coming on. Waking up in a pool of sweat. Wondering if you’re still next to me. My heart leaks, Rivers of lust begin to pour from me. Wanting nothing more than to have you Out of my head and under my sheets. My mind, Is filled from your disease. I’m weak in the knees and with one touch, I fall. For you. Again and again. I fear, Proof that this cancer is on its way. It’s taking a hold of me. With the words on the tip of my tongue I can’t deny the attention. I will, Pray that you see how much I care. When you see me lying there, How can you think otherwise? I know, That you’ve been hurt so many times before. I can ease the pain with words. The ones you’ve heard them say but never meant. Well I do. I feel, Signs of this illness seeping through. Believe me dear I mean what I do. Just trust your heart, It’s trying to heal too.

my head aches from thinking of you your eyes appear so vividly in my brain my heart pounds from the passion you inject every touch melts away the years of trauma my back arches from the fingers that glide my contour a surge of ecstasy with every word whispered in my ear you have me a hold so strong i don't want you to ever let go infatuation yes i can't get you out of my mind i am emotional its true but i have never felt so strongly about something as i do now with you tell me you care for me tell me you never want to see me cry tell me I'm not going crazy when in fact I'm going crazy for you cbass 10.5.06 920am