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My body hurts like a bitch today... the cold weather isnt helping nor is the lyrica I take for fibromyalgia. I tried calling my dr to get an appt, they are always booked out a week so you need to call in the morning to get an appt for the following week. She was like I have a 7:45 next week and I said I would take it, then she was like I am so sorry someone else grabbed it before I did. What a crock.....
My legs feel like they weigh 100 pounds each, physical therapy is good when I am in the pool but afterwards my body feels worse then it did to begin with.
Did I mention I hate this cold weather??
♥ ya all
I got the flu shot yesterday and my body hurts.... someone take my mind off of it plz!
Thats all!
Having a really hard day today... My daughter hasnt spoke to me since the day before I had knee surgery back in July.... At that time I found out she had done coke and we both had choice words for one another. I am dying inside not knowing how she is doing. (she will be 21 in feb) Today I drove past the place I last heard her to be staying and she wasnt outside so I was going down the block to turn around and I seen her on the porch of those where she did the dope. That killed me, I just kept driving. My heart is breaking, I want to pull her in and protect her yet there is not a damn thing I can do.
The other thing bothering me is I turn 40 this month. Now there havent been any other birthdays I have had issues with but this one makes me feel like my life is 1/2 over. I know tacky buy seriously.....
I am just havin a bad day all around :(
I am hanging on the fu today trying to keep my mind off my lousy week. Im suppose to start my classes back next week and I am pretty sure I blew the head gasket in my car. I am not looking for pitty, just need to vent. Monday I had an appt and my car started smoking like a SOB, Tuesday I went about 3 miles and my car started over heating. Wednesday I went and got my 7 YEAR CLEAN coin (one good thing this week), leaving there which was 3 blocks away, my car wouldnt start, then when it started, I got it home and the smoke began again. There is oil in my exhaust and it feels like my car isn't getting much gas, mind you, its a 3 banger metro but I will be without transportaion for awhile, which makes me feel almost claustsphobic, I know what a way to explain it but.....
but once again Yeah me on being clean from meth for 7 years!
Surgery went pretty good. Pain pills are almost too strong, they make me sleep, pleh! Still semi struggling getting around but I went from crutches to my cane. Stairs and driving especially suck! I am hoping when this all heals I will get around alot better!! I hate being cooped up and afternoon tv sucks balls!! I am staying at a friends doing laundry tonight hence being online...............
For those of you not on my facebook, check out my new kitteh!! His name is Colada! :)
Quick update.... been in my new apartment for a week. Boy it sure is quiet after living with so many people for so long.
I went to see the ortho yesterday for the first time since I got the joint fluid shots and he scheduled surgery for July 29th... fun fun since I am on the second floor and this is on my left knee. Did I tell you I have a clutch in my car, pleh...
I wont be on here much, just when I can get near a pc with connection until they install the wi-fi at my apartment complex... One perk of living there :)
Well here it is, the BIG moving day! Is it normal to feel sad and scared about it? After living with upto 10 women for the past year you would think that I am ready to be on my own. In reality, I know that I am but at the same time I am scared to death. I wont have to deal with any more curfews or anymore do this that way or this way because I will be my own boss again. Its been 3 years since I have been in my own place, yanno, with coming back from germany staying with my mom and then here in transitional housing. Granted I am moving into a subsidized place, but at least I know i will be able to afford it.
I wont be online quite as much because in the beginning there is no way I can afford it, although on weekends I can take the laptop to a friends and kick it online.
I keep asking myself why is my stomache so nervous this morning...I guess the inevitable would be that a HUGE change lays in front of me. It is time for me to map out my life and everything I do, once again, I am in control! Wow, weird to say that.
I do want to thank all my friends that have stood by me through all these changes via online, text messages and calls. Erm, if you dont have my number and you want to text, just ask me and I am pretty sure I will give it to ya, unless you are the crazy stalker type LMAO!
Love Ya ALL!
I want to be a fu-hoar.... lmao! I havent leveled since September and I think its time I get on the ball and do it... so if you see me stalking your pics and shit thats what I am doing... and I like rates and stuff too :D
