Jan 9th 2007. The day my heart was crushed and it continues to be crushed. My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me. The pain is still great. He told me we could still be friends and then if it became more then that later then it will. I later found out that he just was saying that. That he doesnt want to get back together. He is makeing me sound like this horrible person and that I treated him so bad. I didnt. Ya I didnt always keep the house clean or the first year we lived together I had a job that didnt offer many hours so I didnt have much money coming in. But after that I got a job that was worth something and I paid him money. I bought him nice expensive things. I would do things for him without him asking me sometimes.
Yes I may have done somethings in the past I am not proud of like the house and the job thing, but I didnt treat him like shit. I didnt cheat on him, yell at him, hit him or anything like that. He thinks that I didnt trust him. He has become a real jerk. Even after we broke up I did his laundry and bought him some groceries. He said I was taking advantage of him. I am starting to wonder if maybe he was taking advantage of me in some small way. I dont know maybe I am wrong. I dont know. All I know is I loved him and trusted him and I still do and always will. I just want the pain and hurt to go away.
