This has been the worst absolute few weeks that I can remember. I was working for 7 years at our local hospital and got let go. My little man's father had only just moved in with us for a couple months and once he found out I had no job, he abandoned us for the most part. I was in love with him but he did not love me. We have a beautiful son together and I am just flabber gasted that he could just leave and then when he does come around, it was like I wasn't in the room. He speaks to me condensendingly and tells me EVERYTHING is all me and my fault. I am not that kind of person. I took him in when he needed help and helped raise his 13 year old son and this is how he treats me. So, I am here trying to meet people to talk to....have fun with.....and forget about him. I don't want someone that could do something like that. I have no car....it belonged to him and is an old car with over 200,000 miles on it. I'm going to lose my home we live in and my other two kids now.....we are in another battle. Great timing, huh? God's will will be what it will be though. Forgive me for being a downer right now. Just lots on my mind. More later.....
