It sucks...
Because,
Usually when I cry....
I can look in the mirror...
and it stops....
The tears fade away with reality...
I wake up from a temporary sleep...
and I can't cry anymore....
When I see myself upset...
And realize I shouldn't let myself cry.
I shouldn't admit to such a pain.
I always could look in the mirror and know I would stop crying.
It wouldn't take the pain away completely...
but, it never failed to make me stop.
Ease the pain a bit. Better than nothing.
and more importantly...
It always worked.
A sure-a-fide way to make me hurt less
Not this time.
not now.
I look into the mirror...
stare at those big sad brown eyes...
and it didn't stop.
The tears kept rolling from my eyes...
down my face...falling to the ground....
Close my eyes. Breath. Look up at the mirror.
Still crying?
Why won't it stop.
Will it ever stop?
My only comfort..the mirror...
shattered.
Shit.
Seven years bad luck.
