Uhhhh!! im such a loser. ii recently started talking to this guy named Brian.. && i like him A LOT.. but it's just.. weird. We have been friends for a while, he used to date one of muh bestfriends, friend.. but we been talkin for a minute now && havent got to hang out yet.. our schedules just clash!! It sucks! && then like, he's always talkin to other females too.. and its not like ii can b mad about it or ne thing cuz we arent 'together' but it kinda makes me upset becuz when im talkin to sum1 'deep' its like all ii wanna talk to is them and it is never tha same for guys.. fuckin sucks. ii just want one guy to make me there everything && make me smile && just b almost perfect. ii dont care if there SEXI, altho it is a plus.. ii just want sum1 to treat me how i women should b treated. Dont get me wrong, Brian is a sweetheart.. ii just dont kno if he's it.. and guess ii wont for a while since im tryin to take things slow. I still wish bookie would come around, but ii cant wait forever.. ii have to do what i gotta!! && then if he decides to come back to me ill have to not run straight to him.. there WILL b lots of talking goin on!! Thats fa'sho..
But back to Bri, i wish ii could just talk to him.. i get so speechless when we are on tha phone, i dont wanna sound like an idiot.. but i am, lol.. im just a big silly girl && cant help it. But ii guess if he cant accept me for who i am then its whatever right?!?!?!
Ne ways thats it for now.. love ya guys.
AnJ Marie
