TheCurteyePromoterGodForsakenRadio's blog: "boredom"

brotherhood and all its humor So you know that old saying "you cant pick your family?" or what about this one, "blood is thicker than water," have you ever heard the rest of that? cuz it goes somthin like this "but love is thicker than blood". So i received a phone call about a week ago while i was at my moms, from the woman i rent a room from. She told me that a guy called Black Boots had stopped by and told her that he was looking for me. I was kinda surprised since he was supposed to be in jail and all. That and the last time i had really seen him I was re-arrangeing his face for him. You see Black boots is really named Jason Stull, my once dearest friend. I had kinda cought he and my long time girlfriend Shannon Antonelli together and we had not spoken since, well not civily anyway. So you can immagine my surprise. When He and Shannon were sneakin around behind my back, they were on some seriouse drugs, not gonna say what, but i think we all know. It hurt, not that he had slept with my girl, but that he had lied to me about it. I was tired of him lieing to me about stupid shit that should never be between us. I couldnt be mad at her, I knew she was a whore when i got together with her. So un fortunatly, Jason was the outlet for alot of anger for a long time. I hated what he had become, and i missed who he really was. BADLY. When you loose someone that you love, be it a spouse or a friend or a family member, to death or you just loose touch witheachother, it can be hard. Jason and I were the closest of close, I loved him like a brother. He was the other half of my personality in another body. To be honest, there is not a significant moment in my adult life that doesnt involve him in some way, good or bad. So i was lost. When he called, I called back. He is on house arrest so i knew where to find him. I went to his moms house and wanted to talk. The first words out of his mouth were "please dont fight me", but after i told him that i wasnt up for that, we got to talk and straighten out alot of stuff. I told him how i felt about what had happened and why i felt that way. we both said that we were sorry. Now we are left to rebuild what once was. I think that we both know it may never really be like it was before, and thats not necciserily a bad thing(we were never the best influence on eachother). But we have grown up since then and are ready to try this thing called life again. I dont know what the future holds for any of us, but i cant wait to find out. So here is to my once again hetero-lifemate, Jason, your a dick and i hate you man.

well its official, im about to go insane, i need to get out of this town