I have heard no word from her. Wish she would have called me. Now I am tired. If she decides to go out late now, it's not happening. I have to work tomorrow. I want to see her. Maybe we can just talk and hang out. Bored... About to go to bed.. Tired.. My mom and sister are coming in on the 4th. Almost can't wait. I know my mom can't either for more than just to come see me. She wants to get away from my brother for a while. He's been so attached to her for really three and half years if you want to count the pregnancy. I am getting excited to see my older sister. You know now that I think about it. I have never loved anyone so much as I have loved any one person in my family. I hope and wish I could find that women I can show the same love and joy with. The joy I speak of comes in the anticipation building up to seeing someone I love and have not see in a while. Just wander how it will be after a 6 month deployment. I don't know if I can bear it. I might just drop to my knees and not because of the pain either. I get a shiver just thinking about it. I love my family so much. I want to be able to love a woman with the same love that I have for my family. Maybe more. I sit here wandering when that day will come. Who is she? Is it this woman or that woman? How will I know for sure? I don't want to make a bad choice and regret it later. I want her to love me for who I am. Even in my ignorance. I just wish I would be able to find a woman that isn't a whore. Like I might be dating some one, just to later find out that while she was dating me, she was sleeping with every guy either she or I know. If a woman is dating me, she needs to only think of being with me. Is that so wrong? If she sleeps around now, would she not commit adultery when I am married to her? It's not funny any more nor has it made it right to have premarital sex. I hope any one who reads my blogs will still be my friend after they are done with them. You're views may be different, but that doesn't mean you have to stop being my friend. I'm tired now I have to get up and go to work in the morning and I don't want to be caught falling asleep at work in my down time. Well peace to you all. Who know what my next thoughts will be. They could all be totally the opposite. What ever... V_ PEACE!!!! And Good day,night or what ever it is when you read this. I didn't proof read this so any mistakes will stay as is.
