I have enough aggression inside of me to beat any guys ass.

::a little deeper side of me::

I'm passionate. sincere. intelligent. witty. bitchy. affectionate. mysterious. sensitive. confident. sarcastic. outgoing. brutally honest. independant. loyal. judgemental. sheltered. goofy. heartbroken. unpredictable. and i'm easily misunderstood.

If you think you're a bitch then obviously you haven't met me yet.

I'm a thirty-one year old small town girl. I'm the type of girl that you take home to your mother. I'm a sophmore in college. most people who know me consider me this sweet and outgoing girl? but don't piss me off. I have a hard time opening up to people. I don't like to discuss my problems and I keep everything in. I'm labeled as your typical good girl but that doesn't mean I don't like to go out and have fun every once in a while. I don't drink alot for your obvious reasons and for my personal ones also. I'm also a mommy and I'm very proud of myself for that too.

TURN ON'S
passion: n. a powerful emotion. a strong sexual desire, lust.

In guys, I'm really picky. probably too picky for my own good. I guess the reason is because I know what I want and I don't want to settle for nothing but the best. I have super huge trust issues. I've been hurt and lied too many times and been through more than I can handle, so if the right guy comes along I'm sure I'll know. so hopefully he comes very soon. I just want someone to care about me just as much as I care about them. it's not asking for much. but I've basically quit looking and let things happen on their own. and I so found him. <3 I found someone to love. to give my all too. I've been hurt a lot. more times than I can count. more times that I wish I wouldn't have. my heart has been damaged, bruised, crushed, and ripped out. I have trust issues that sometimes breaks me down and pushes the people closest to me away. It's like sometimes I have a wall up so no one can get close to me. I don't let just anyone get close to my heart or see my feelings. I want to trust again with my whole heart, but I am so scared to in fearing I will get hurt once again. I have high standards. I think I have found love for the first time, but not with just anyone. I found someone who has my heart and won't break it. I found someone who has earned my love and won't take it for granted. >

I found a guy who will hold my hand, wrap their arms around me, and keep me safe. I found a guy who will call me in the middle of the night, no matter what time it is just to tell me that he is thinking about me. I found someone who will take a little effort into showing me that they care. one who does those sweet nothings without even thinking about it. one who is by my side no matter what. one who will stay around no matter how many barriers we have to get across or how many obstacles we have to move around, no matter the distance, the fights, or disagreements. one who I can laugh and goof around with. someone who laughs at my jokes even if they aren't funny. one who has kept me going when I feel like giving up. I found someone to call me beautiful instead of cute, exotic instead of sexy, creative instead of special. I found someone who has goals and strives of excellence and goes way above and beyond for himself. someone who has standards, goals, and morals. I found someone who doesn't make me his world, but makes me apart of it. I found someone who loves me for who I am on the inside, rather than the out, and lastly, one loves me because he's the happiest guy in the world when he's with me and wouldn't want to be with any other girl, besides me.

I found the love of my life, His name is Justin. No matter how hard either one of us tries to push the other away.. neither of us can stay away. That's real love at it's finest. Sometimes we get carried away and our behavior, thoughts, and actions are often disheartening for the other. I however do know that no matter what, we will always be here for one another. We might not talk for a year.. and I could call, and he would not push me away. I have never felt more love for one person.. You really and truly never know what its like to love someone that much until you actually feel that loved. He completes me.. he makes up for what I lack. He is truly that one person that was meant for me, my other half, my soulmate... When I can't count on anyone.. I believe I can always count on him.. I have more faith in him then I have in myself. To meet someone who makes you want to be a better person is by far the best gift of all. I may love again.. but I will never love anyone more than him. He will forever hold the majority of my heart.. and there is no one that will ever be able to take it place. For that matter, do for me what he has. No matter what happens.. I will always love him. We have been through some very rough times.. and I know that if I can make it through that.. there is nothing in this world I can't get through. He is my angel in disguise..

There are so many thing's in this world that I can only appreciate if my heart is truly happy. When my heart is empty, cold, or broken.. Not even the things I once kept closest to my heart will make make me smile. I have always had to have someone reassure me that there is always a reason to smile. I often lose sight of the things that are important when I get down, which is more often then not. Don't take this the wrong way.. I am very easily made to be happy when it's the right person doing the trying. I know deep down in my heart that everything will work itself out. I sometimes lose sight of that though. All good things come to those who wait.

I don't ask for much. I don't want materialistic things. I just want love. and I now that Ive found it I won't ever let go.<3 >

It is guaranteed that you will never meet another girl like me.

TURN OFF'S
[-] Ignorance - I can never say it enough, ignorance is bliss.
[-] Annoyances - I tend to flake out when I get too anoyed.
[-] Liars - I despise being lied to, it irks me more than anything.
[-] Broken Promises - Why make a promise you have no intentions of keeping?
[-] Cheaters - Why be with someone if you are not happy? It's really pointless.
[-] Players - You can leave your effing games at home, I aint down.
[-] Lack of Communication - If you are not on the same page.. your future is destined to fail.
[-] Mental Disorders - Why are some people more mentally stable than others? Not very fair.
[-] Being Sad - There is no worse feeling than feeling hopeless & useless.
[-] Depression - Why does such a dark, cold, & hopeless place exist? Why in god's name?
[-] Being given up on - I will never give up on you, don't be so quick to give up on me.
[-] Broken Hearts - Hearts were not meant to be broken.. or mended for that matter.
[-] Confusion - I cannot be confused.. I need the satifaction of a semi-clear head.
[-] Snow - I hate snow more than any other weather.. It ruins everything
[-] Back Stabbers - Why talk isht if you can't back it up? "Talk about it, be about it"
[-] Judgemental People - Thing's are not always as they seem..
[-] Being Alone - I'm not sure I even know how to really be alone..

randoms::
flying. spiders. people who use 1000 different colors in their profile. dirtiness. man whores. slow drivers. two-faced people. immaturity. traffic. cheaters. conceited/stuck up girls. bitches. idiots. ignorance. assholes. players. cruelty. people who say they are something they're not. I hate trying to please everyone. arguing. drama. drama queens. getting hurt. smoking. drugs. alcoholics. bad grammar. getting played or led on.

HOBBIES
What I would change about myself given the chance:

nothing at all. i'm so imperfect that I love it.

there's always someone who is having a harder day than you.
a harder life than you. and falling a harder fall than you.