(ok, so i figured out that if i write a few blogs first, then post 'em all at the same time it saves me from losing all i wrote as they get deleted!! so don't be surprised by the fact that the first one has to do with christmas!!!!)
(christmas) why do we make such a big deal out of christmas? it's just another holiday built around greed and selfishness! (which i'll address shortly!!) and when you get stuck spending time with friends and family you can barely stand because of a date on the calendar? like that makes sense! family we spend the other 364 days desperately avoiding, we're suddenly spending hours of our time with simply because they've gotten us stuff we probably don't need or WANT! i used to enjoy it 'til i realized what a ridiculous holiday it really is! it's like thanksgiving with presents, that's it! we spend, no WASTE, perfectly good time off of work with people we really don't like just because it's drilled into us that we have to! it's honestly kind of dumb when you think about it! but that's where the greed and selfishness come in! the original point of christmas was to celebrate the birth of Jesus, then over time, people stopped giving a shit and started focusing on making money and getting stuff they have no use for or don't deserve! like parents of the most rotten kids will buy them the most expensive shit just 'cause it's on some list! i think we should make all kids make lists all year long of the good and bad things they've done and then a week before christmas we tally it up, add up all the good and give it a monetary value, then add up all the bad and subtract that from the good and judge how much to spend on the bastard that way! but you can't 'cause kids will never be honest! there will be 2 bad things on a list of a million good things! but the fucked up thing is most of the good kids do is because they're made to do it! not because they genuinely want to! little BASTARDS!! and everyone's so involved with what they want or are getting that they put little thought into giving! maybe i don't get it, i just don't understand how the people who deserve the least always want the most! kinda fucked up if you think about it!
(getting older) it's funny, when you're little, when you're growing up, you are constantly told to act your age or you're expected to act older thatn you really are! (especially if you happen to be the oldest child!!) that's fine, it's understandable! that makes sense! i was told constantly, at least a million times a day, at least! but the older i got, the more i was told to not be so serious and stop acting like such an adult! so i did, and i haven't honestly grown up since! now that i'm officially in my late 20's (as of saturday, February 9th!!), i feel torn! i've been acting younger than i should for a really long time now and i know people love me for the fact that i'm funny, juvenile, and immature, but when it's time to DO WORK and handle business i act perfectly mature and adult-like almost instantly! this is my dilemma!! is there an age when someone needs to stop acting like they're a kid and grow-up? i mean i'm not married, i don't have kids, my responsibilities aren't overwhelmingly numerous but there are quite a few, and it's not like i'm 50 pretending to be 13! i feel like i'm just kinda stuck! if i'm supposed to be an adult, if i'm supposed to take more control of what's going on around me, why do i always get in trouble when i try? i'm just not sure i understand where i'm supposed to be, what i'm supposed to be doing.... what do i do? keep the personality i have now.... or develop and use my grown-up side on an ever-increasing, and eventually permanent, basis? "what? what do i do" i ponder in silence, head down, eyes burning holes through the ceiling of childhood AND the floor of adulthood! what do i do....
(valentine's day) so, valentine's day is here again and once again everybody's in a panic! "oh my god, i didn't get him anything!" "what am i gonna do for her?" wow, are we THAT superficial? how much crap, that's usually useless and just getsthrown away eventually anyway, do we need to get our significant other to show them how much we really love them? are you kidding me? a teddy bear shows you think they're childish! chocolates show them you think they're fat! flowers? oh, don't get me startedon the cheap-ass, last-minute 7-11 shoppers who get that 2 dollar rose and 6 dollar bear and 3 foot tall card and hope it makes up for the shitty treatment they give their partner throughout the year!!!! it's such a bullshit holiday! it's christmas, minus the cool gifts and add half-ass romantic dinners and "sigh, i guess i have to" sex! i mean, yeah, if you wanna be an asshole about it you can do a million nice things in hopes that maybe he/she will do something special (as in only on special occasions!!) in the bedroom! but it's usually, like 9 times out of 10, just the same boring, monotonous sex the two of you've been having and the reason you both cheat!!!! i, personally, don't wait for, or even need, a special day to show the ones i love how much i truly love them! i do it everyday! people who wait for a specific day, this specific day to be quite frank, need to be dragged through the street and beaten with the over-sized teddy bears and 5 pound boxes of chocolates they use to kiss ass and make up for all the bullshit they put everyone through!!!!
