I am wondering at this very moment if you are thinking of me, if you like me, wondering what is taking you so long to write me. Many times I thought I finally have you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to have you in my arms.
I am thinking of how we will meet. Would it be as romantic as the ones I have seen in the movies? Or is there a possibility that I can have you in my arms?.. Oh how I wish you were here right now coz you are the only one who has the answers to all of my questions.
Sometimes I ask myself if I am experiencing "love". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believed that more often than not, we will never experience what really love is until we have that person and since that you're not here, maybe I'm not experiencing love. You just don't know how often I dream of finally having you and what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment, I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet. Perhaps I am drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe how you manage to make me laugh with your silly little ways :-). I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me to wait for the right time. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began to worry. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clilinging onto the vision of the beautiful life ahead of me, the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth that pain and sacrifice.
After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect for Y-O-U. I wonder if you're gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey.
But my dearest Knight, please don't ever give up coz I am right here.... patiently waiting for you. I assure you that when we finally on each others arms, I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.
At Night, I would look up out the window and stare at wonderful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer before I sleep and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time, they would reach you. When I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my mind and dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long to tell how much I care for you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love. This, all the more makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with all the hope that soon enough, that will no longer be a dream but a reality. Once again, I am assured that you are worth the wait. When that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just I had imagined, thought, dreamed and had believed it would be. By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through inspite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life. I am very thankful that they all lead me to being with you.
In the meantime, take care of yourself and be safe for me. Hold on to what I have said and don't ever think of letting go. Believe in me that we would be together no matter what happens. God has planned everything and it is up to us to follow the directions he had made for us. Don't worry God made all the roads that which one you choose to follow, will lead to me ;-)
--- My sadness and boredom lead me to reposting this... :-(
