Brave Heart's blog: "Fasty McNasty"

These are the lyrics to my favorite song: Soulshine by The Allman Brothers Band When you can’t find the light, That got you through the cloudy days, When the stars ain’t shinin’ bright, You feel like you’ve lost you’re way, When those candle lights of home, Burn so very far away, Well you got to let your soul shine, Just like my daddy used to say. [chorus] He used to say soulshine, It’s better than sunshine, It’s better than moonshine, Damn sure better than rain. Hey now people don’t mind, We all get this way sometime, Got to let your soul shine, shine till the break of day. I grew up thinkin’ that I had it made, Gonna make it on my own. Life can take the strongest man, Make him feel so alone. Now and then I feel a cold wind, Blowin’ through my achin’ bones, I think back to what my daddy said, He said boy, in the darkness before the dawn: [chorus] Let your soul shine, It’s better than sunshine, It’s better than moonshine, Damn sure better than rain. Yeah now people don’t mind, We all get this way sometimes, Gotta let your soul shine, shine till the break of day. Sometimes a man can feel this emptiness, Like a woman has robbed him of his very soul. A woman too, God knows, she can feel like this. And when your world seems cold, you got to let your spirit take control. [chorus] Let your soul shine, It’s better than sunshine, It’s better than moonshine, Damn sure better than rain. Lord now people don’t mind, We all get this way sometimes, Gotta let your soul shine, shine till the break of day. Oh, it’s better than sunshine, It’s better than moonshine, Damn sure better than rain. Yeah now people don’t mind, We all get this way sometimes, Gotta let your soul shine, shine till the break of day.

Since you left me, each passing moment, Is haunting with memory- Amd my heart is nigh to breaking For our dreams that couldn't be. So return to me, and just for a moment, Let us dream as we dreamed in the past- And then, when the moment is over, My heart shall break at last.

I do not grieve For having known of you. That strange, passionate Part of you That I have known; Nor do I lament For having as my own The fragment of soul You trusted me, tenderly, For so short a while, Nor do i mourn For having pillaged Immortalities open door For rememberence of your smile.

I sit cooking in a cauldron of frustration At the thought That I will never have you. I keep digging, and digging, And all I find is a rock What garden do I imagine to landscape? Why won’t this hopeless love just die? I toss and turn in my sweat-socked bed Burning with unrequited desire Going mad, insane, crazy, round the bend, going nuts: Yet you sleep soundly, unbothered. Why this curse? Oh wretched love, why did you ever come? When I express my soul to you, You freak Turn away. Is my love too much? Then you built this wall with solid bricks of disbelief. And now I punch hard with my fist To make a window.

Yesterday, I thought today, was vain. It was clear, I could hear, it was plain. Inside my mind, I could not find, it was cold. But I thought of you, yes it's true....."I fold, I fold!!!" As my lips could not speak, I got weak, but you knew. My hands cound not say, but I May, I still love you. But as it is known, that while I have grown, I have been slain. This part is so torn, my heart is so warn, and all is vain.

It's times like these, I wish I did not fret. I'd take the ashes from the burning lake, and write to you once more. I don't care what is said or whose blood should be shed, I'd still take the pain. What is to become of those who are late, who davel in life and toil in voided reality. Why can't they see, why can't they go??? What must I choose so's not to loose?? These are the things that you helped me with, and still I refuse. And all the Men, whose hearts you touch...and those that you don't, Can't see what it's like when I sing the blues and drink the sober mind 'till death. It's times like these that I wish I lived a blind man, and deaf and slaughtered too. But, it can't be stopped and you try to piece together the puzzle that was never there

Into servitude I was bought, And with an ounce of pain, I was tought. Incriminating with what I always thought. By love and greed, I was caught. Maybe, someday I'll be different; But until then, I'm not coherent. Shadowy thoughts, that is all apparent. Envy sayth "Be Ignorant! ! ! ! !" "No one is the wiser." So they said. Repeating images of casting demons in my head, I could have ended it all, with a piece of lead, As I walk through life laying on my death bed. Jumbled thoughts of todays date, I still don't know how much you hate, If you don't, can you wait? Just tell me straight.......is it too late??

Tools are used and tools are broken. Hearts are used and hearts are broken. Laughs don't last but hurt the most, when rain hits pavement we laugh with the host. Bitter stings of agony while torment is just, We impale our lives to others we trust. Jokers circle the stage with calamity and fright, I think that where we stand falls short of might. I care not for the value but for worthless pride, I've seen noone who cares beside me in stride. And the hopeless jesters of the court are all out But we overlook what is there and reply a shout. If I hadn't seen blue all my life, what would i know? If I hadn't felt blue all my life, what would i show?