well we're not together its been up in the air for a week and now he's gone moved out and left town all in one day. i guess i should be happy, since it was a pretty short sweet break up kindaa, till u get down to the details. but i hurt so bad, and i feel like i can't let it go because i'm a parent now, like i'm wrong for poundering abt it rather than thinking abt my daughter 24-7. i don't want to talk to someone but i feel like i'm gonna bust at the seems to vent to someone i just don't know who. i feel like you pull one nerve the wrong way ibut all in one day he's here at'm gonna fall apart. i feel pathetic, my anxiety and depression and everything else that's wrong with me that im on meds for (for those who know) is 100 times worse. right now i'm hiding at my parents cause i cant stand to look at "our" house, more less anything thats inside of it. i want him back but i can't take him back cause of everything he did to me and my daughter. but i still love him, and will probably always will, he'sjust that type of person. and his mother i believe and others believe is pretty much all to blame. long story. and now in one day he's here and now he's gone all packed and on a train to 2 hrs south but still tells everyone that he loves me and leila but can't deal with the drama anymore. but still wants to be able to see her and she's not even his biological child. even though he's the closest to a father she's had other then her grandfather, who is amazing. there's more too this that i might write abt later, but sry ppls i started crying again, and i can't read anymore.
