Wrote this as a performance piece for if I ever get back around to that poetry club I used to go to. Might never perform it but *shrugs* maybe someday.
3/14/07
3:02pm
This is supposed to be read aloud very fast almost like rapping but with handmovements and speed changes where appropriate. The speed is important because it gives the listener a feeling of disorientation and completion. Follow speed/action cues when reading.
(normal speed)Every relationship the same thoughts- - (normal, speeding up to med fast)am I really as beautiful as he says or is it a ploy by another little boy trying to get his game on and score one for the team in the corner with their [cup holding] booze and water making me hot under the collar [pull collar of shirt]. (normal, speeding up)Is he as real as he says or is this just a haze of false hope on which I choke [hold neck] with another toke [universal smoking sign] on the beautiful dreams bong as we sing along to beautiful music [dance fingers in front of eyes] that turns down and dirty really early, (normal, pause at periods for extra beat)and I’m going no. can’t breathe. the air. (med fast)as the world spins with topsy turvy grins and a “you got played” in the back of my brain. (normal, slight pause at commas)But this one, he’s new, he talks of love and help, (hold arms to chest)healing the self, (flex) becoming strong, (prayer hands)please don’t let it be another song with no end I don’t wanna pretend one more time. (cross wrists in front)Tie me in your ropes of truth, see past the battered youth and (cupt hands)hold a treasure in your hands -- not grasping sands and straws like the other thugs, give me a hug and say again that you love me, will be here for me, and help me be strong, (pump fist in air)that I belong! (place rt hand on heart) And I will not wander this land a drifter anymore.
