I am stressing out again today!. My finances are a little shorter than I want and I don't know if my huuby will remember to give me the money I asked for.
I talked to my best friend last night about a lot of things. One of the things she asked me was how were things with $$$. I said we have barely enought to keep the bills paid and I get frustrated because we need a little more and I know I can do what needs to be done to get the little more. What happens is I just get so frustrated with the lack of that I get stuck and don't go out and do what needs to be done to bring in the 50 or 100 or 200 dollars more that we need.
While I was talking to my best friend about this she told me two things, 1) I'm too hard on myself and I need to stop that, 2) Try and focus on the positive and the good things I do have.
Then today while I was visiting with the other ladies that I work out with I brought up the conversation I had with Allison and this other lady said the same thing. Focus on the positive.
Here I am now working on this blog. Ever since the conversation I had with Allison I've been thinking about coming up here and focusing on the positive.
What are my positives? I'll just start listing them here and we'll see what pops in to my head.
1)I have a roof over my head. 2) I have a car that runs well most of the time. 3) I have two healthy children, my 7 yr old daughter and my 3 yr old soon. 4)I have unconditional love from them. 5)I have a husband who works hard 6 days a week so I can be home with the kids and not have to work. 6) I do have two types of jobs that I enjoy when I do want to work. 1. My MaryKay business, which I know can make my dreams come true and can help with that extra 200 or so a week/month whatever we need. 2. I substitute teach for our district during the school year. 7)I have my own health. I plan on living a long time. 8) My husband is also healthy. 9) I've got a best friend who is always there for me. No matter what. She lifts me up when I am at my lowest and she rejoices with me when I have my successes. 10) The seasons are starting to change. We are moving in to Spring in my part of the world. And Spring is my favorite season of the year. 11)I have other local friends that I can call on in my times of sadness and joy. 12) I have met lots of people on the internet here at CherryTAP and MySpace. Some of you I know I can count on in both times of sadness and times of joy. 13)I have a good friend that I also met on the internet that I can call or email at anytime and she will also always be there. 14) I have family around both from my family of origin and my husband's family of origin. Some here in my local area some in other parts of the country but they are here. And I can count on them. We have had our differences and we don't agree on things like god and spirituality but we're still family.
15) Along with having a roof over my head we also have plenty of food. So I don't have to worry about going hungry or anyone in my family going hungry. 16) We have a fireplace and wood to burn in it so even though the seasons are changing we still get cold at night and I get to stay warm. 17) As far as my MaryKay business I have lots of wonderful people that I can surround myself with when I get discouraged. And they can help me get over the hump and hang in there a little longer. 18) I have mother nature around me. I have a small fruit orchard in my yard, a cattle farmer next door, and a hayer down the road. I have a river just a short walk away. 19) My town has a little movie theater where both movies and plays go on. 20) My daughter is excelling in both academics and athletics. 21) My son is learning the alphabet and has already started memorizing Mother Goose.
Wow! That kind of does change your perspective a bit. I didn't know how many I was going to be able to come up with tonight but as I saw the #'s in the teens I thought lets see if we can get 20. Sure enough I came up with 21. I'm sure if I thought more about it I could probably come up with 20 more but I'm starting to feel the effects of the purge. This is another blessing (or curse) I have. I love to write/journal.
I hope that you all have a good night. And maybe my "purge" can help you out.
Blessed Be,
Shalai
