Can't let you see me cry
the tears fall as I think of you
can't let you know i'm thinking of you
You are on my mind
My emotions dance within me
in rythmic confusion
They laugh as they bounce off
my inner walls
causing me to feel faint
i am tired
my mind laughs at me
it said I told you
so.
But i didnt listen
it was subtle
very quiet very still
the feelings that grew
i was confused
scared that my fears had come true
only to find that it was
now as hard as i try to escape
i end up getting more tangled in
my emotions
they scream with laughter
as they tug me in multiple directions
causing me to loose control
i wonder if Im going insane
if I am being parinod
if im just overreating
if im just giving a blame
This cant be real I ask myself
i want to believe this is all a lie
please do not let me look like a fool
and then over and over again i hear
the laughter
but if i listen closly put my ear to my soul
i hear a faint sound
peaceful and calm in the mist of confusion
it brings me back to reality
allows me to see clear
it quietly says
you are not alone
you were never alone
all your fears were exaggerated
they where all in your mind
follow what's in your heart
and do not waiver
for it is not what you know
but what your heart knows
it knows what is best for you
and it is like a second mind
one that reasons with feelings
and the truth shall be clear
you may not see it now
but it will come very soon.