Ok so pretty much this is how my day went yesterday, found out my brother left for Afghanistan, and still unsure of whether I will ever see him again...girlfriend leaves me...get pissed off at a friend....get ditched by a different friend who i was supposed to be hanging out with last night, and to top it all off, I walked home, alone, 5 miles....in the rain.
In light of these events, I now know how little I feel now, how cursed I am on this thing called love...I feel expendible, lonely, and yet again, completely unwilling to love to spare myself pain.
I just wish I could live out the rest of my days without feeling anything...I'm sick and tired of being hurt by people I thought I could depend on.
My only hope is that one day I find someone who would throw caution to the wind to be with me. Someone who wouldnt take my love for granted...
I'll live though, I'll move on, and eventually I'll forget.