today was my first day working security in a huge hotel. the day started with my batterie dying as I got to work. then as i was taking a tour of the hotel, a guest of the hotel died in my arms.
I saw him joking around with a friend of his, turned to us (a co-worker who was giving me the tour) once they parted, and started asking a question, then grabbed my shoulder and squeezed it, grabbed his chest and fell over on me, i fell to the floor with him on top of me. I kept my calm as thats who i am in intense situations, help arrived, Neither i or security could find a pulse.. paramedics arrived and pronounced him DOA.
I never had anyone die in my arms before. He was so young and died of a heart attack. I stayed the rest of the day.. if I left early when HR and my manager were trying to tell me to go, I wouldnt be able to come in again.. so I stayed.
Im just so saddned by this experience. to see the fear and pain in his eyes and they fixated on mine. till i saw his life leave him.
so Im sad today.. I have to wait till 9 pm to talk to jimmie. i need him so.
*sigh*
