Cold autumn evenings,
looking out a window at the fading light,
winter seeping into weary bones,
thoughts turn to friends empty, pity filled hugs,
wondering if that is all that is left for me.
Only wanting to love, to be close to someone
but I get only to watch others walk hand in
hand, seperated, as if I'm in a glass cage.
Helpless, unknowing how to deal with all these
pain filled feelings.
Trying to keep hope but always losing sight.
Looking around and seeing friends full of love
surrounding me, seperated, though, by the glass.
Constantly alone.
Begining to feel like a love predator left
with nothing but prey. Like my spider in
it's cage full of bugs.
I'm doomed to watch over those that could
feed me, protect them, that is all I can see
unable to be truly loved. Left with empty
cold filled nights holding back the rage.
Curled in a corner all night. Pain wreaking
havoc upon my heart and soul, fighting
thoughts and sensations. An empty being.
Alone
