I make excuses not to date men and I go out of my way to avoid desperate men. I realize I'm attracted to emotionally unavailable men. I realize men that are too available tend to be a turn off. I believe that I have a commitment phobia. But not in the context of someone who cheats. Just a commitment phobia without the cheating part. I believe I mostly just have phobias that associate with romance and love. And I have a defensive side that makes me want to fight with men who want to be intimate with me. I don't fight with men that just want to be friends with me. Men that want to be intimate with me end up making me angry and defensive. Sometimes just let out angry and other times just defensive.