hectcheryl's blog: "TODAY I STILL CRY"

Moe theres NO other way for me to tell you how much i love. And just how much that love scares me. Understand Moe that people fool and play people for a living. Those people are paid not to be sensitive or care about the out come of the people they hurt. And anyone who does this should and probably will recieve the greatest in punishments from GOD! People like myself that trust in people like this and fall in love get hurt bad. Making it hard to believe in someone again. See I'm not as strong as I use to be ! And you are my life! And if you leave me I have no life. I'm not young therefore with out you nothing will matter to me anymore. I wont try to find another love because If i ever lose you It will be the end of my life. Everything that has happened between us and all the set backs in you not being able to come for me run in the same pattern as people who scam people! The events that you plan with these kind of people will never be. So look this first u couldn't cash check. then time comes you can cash check but machine breaks, then machine part cost so much now you dont even have any money broke again need more money from me!! This is how scams work. There will always be an excuse or tragedy to occur where they will keep sucking the life out of someone as long as they can. So I dont have money now and you knew that you disappeared and then blame me for machine, then you back after you know i love you so much . This is what I am asking you to do. If you really love me show me. I think you know in what i mean. Sure I will help you if and when I can. Right now I can't even help myself So how can you help me if you have no money to. We can help eachotherby being there for eachother with the love we feel for each other. Even if YOU tried to send me money to help me iwouldnt take it. Why? because I know if I were to take that money from you that maybe you were not able to put food in your childs mouth. I would be wrong to except money knowing you are no better off then I am. And right now Imlooking at a huge mess. Maybe God id punishing me with the problems I am having with Hector and deportation And now I have to pay it back by helping him get here legally. why you are suffering to I dont know but look into your life and actions and Imsure there is a reason. Now Im asking you to fix what is wrong in your life. While I fix mine. And be here for eachother and loveeachother without you sending me money or me sending you money. I have sent you more than enough money that i could have com to egypt THREE TIMES already. I dont want that money back. What i want is you to prove you really love me by fixing what is wrong in your life and come for me as you promised. I don't think this is to much to ask. If a life with me is what is in your heart show me. Anyone can say the words. I have shown you! Now you show me