many things i have came into my life and yet there was things i screwed up along the way and many things i could of kept in my life. everyday that goes by me i sit there and think if it was worth trying for or worth dieing for over that little chance i had in my heart or the god gift of shining down on me and telling me some ways that i could change my life or start over.but i know somewhere in my heart and little knowing of the childish things i have done and foolish mistakes i made i know there people who are how there that feel like i do and i know there some people in my life know who they are and know what i have done this time around and many more other times threw out life. *sighs* yet i still want to change my ways many ways then one i have come to mind about it and yet in my heart is makes me feel black hearted and cold inside. those days i come to feel when i know things some of been done long time back and the motivation i need to keep me going everyday many people have lives out there and so do i. in these days to come i feel like 2 sides of me with 2 hearts because half of me tells one story and the other wants to do what i should have done in time when it was needed but in these closing days,weeks and years could be my turning point and therefore tomorrow could be that day to wake up and refresh the thought of motivation and start over again and pick up where the pieces last fell and move on so therefore in time things maybe change and hope for the better along the way.