XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

Up North .. 

 It quite literally is so cold, that there is snow... 

Up North it feels strange , a like a skin too tight or too loose to wear ...

I still feel like a florida girl undearneath it all ... 

I'm missing the Warmth of the bright Sunshine ... 

but i have the brightest sunshine of all in my Daughter eyes... 

I'd live through a thousand long winters ...

 Just to look into the those beautiful brown eyes of hers.. 

And be wrappped in those sweet loving arms... 

I love her so much its hard to imagine what life was before she came into it ... 

I wouldn't give up a second ... 

Being a mother has changed me in so many ways ... 

It's made my heart so much more tender ... 

and i surrender to my tenderness.. 
It's made my heart more compassionate

And i surrender to my compassion...

Its made me more empathic to others ..

And I surrender to my empathy...

As a mother 

I worry ... 

but I refuse to surrender to my worry .. 

As the world sees me im far from perfect ..

But I surrender to my imperfections... 

Up North i have many things to be grateful for .. 

And yet a piece of my spirit belong in Florida as well... 

Just like a butterfly....

But I surrender to being a Mother with all that comes with it .... 

We make a pledge that we will put our children first ... 

Even when we desire things so intensely... 

We must wait ... 

such is life ... 

And so life continues Up north... 

Far away from the other life ... 

Onward ...

Marching north step by step .. building a new life... brick by brick ... hold on , dig in .. keep fighting.. for a better life up North...