Ok.. It's been a while since I did this.. and warning..
I'm really ... uhm ... p*ssed off. FYI - This blog/note
will be posted identically on 3 websites where I frequent
or am a member of. Wherever I may post a status, or
comments on others... This is posted. This is not AIMed
or DIRECTED at ANY ONE person.. or ANY GROUP of people.
This is just... HOW I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW!
In the past week, I have posted status messages on all 3
websites.. and yes, some of those, were aimed at one or
two direct individuals. Those that the status messages
were aimed at.. would know who they are. They did know
who they were aimed at. I will randomly put status
messages that are just what entered my mind at the time i
was posting it. Meaning.. not aimed or directed at
anyone, just something I may have been feeling at that
moment for whatever the reason. MY actions.. and i do
mean MY ACTIONS, on whichever site, are just that.. MINE!
If anyone has a problem with any of these.. actions,
status messages, comments or whatever, then.. since other
than my children on one site (mspace), we are all adults.. come to
me directly with your problems or questions involving my
actions or comments or status messages. This would make
life for all.. a little more asier. If its more difficult
for you to email me, send me a private message, send me a
yim or text or pick up the phone and call me, then I guess
we weren't as good as friends as we both thought. I have
always had my door opened to all of my friends and family
on any website that I may be on. At this point, I have
thought about leaving the internet all together for many
reasons. However, the funny thing is.. not one person,
really cared enough to ask. Ask me, Why.. Why are you
leaving, is there anything I can do, you can talk to me.
After I made the decision and posted the messages, it took
a day.. then I had a few people come to me asking me why??
Through my decision process, TWO and yes, just TWO people
knew the truth behind my decisions. I have spoke to a few
on my own up front. Not giving them a chance to ask why,
as I feel they deserved it with how good of a friend to me
they have been since we met. (via internet for most of
them on one site - Duey, Wicca, and a couple more). The
rest I would have hit up on yim after the fact.. as I have
started to do. However, last night and this morning, I
have decided that I am not gonna leave. I am just gonna
do my thing. I could care less at this point what some
might have to say about it.. but on one site, I have
worked too hard to start over, and I am revamping some of
those things to make it work out that I dont have some of
those same issues.. but on the other sites.. I am just
gonna check in. Maybe post a generic status or something.
To the apps, I am sorry, I am just not gonna do them. I
am gonna push for my leveling and maybe start being a DJ
again. I miss it. It was one thing that actually helped
release a lot of the stress that some people seem to want
to cause.
To finish this up. Here it is. If I do anything that
upsets you, that you dont like, that you want to question
if I AM OK.. then come to me. Don't go to my fiance',
don't go to my friends, don't go to my friend's friends..
come to me. I won't bite. I can't bite you first off..
that would damage my computer and I am not about to do
that for ANYONE!!! Come ask me. Come to me. I am here
for all of my friends and family. Rarely do I turn them
away, and I am honest about my answers. NO matter if you
like them or not, I will tell you the truth. If you think
I want to get between you and yours.. then you are
mistaken. I am very happy where I am.. with who I am.. and
with who I am going to marry. My fiance' has my whole
heart.. my whole soul.. He knows all I do on any website.
He and I talk about everything that I do, that he does..
its how we manage to stay close being so far away. If
that just amazes you into not believing.. ask him. He
will tell you the same. However, if its a question about
me then ASK ME!!! If you know someone that is asking
about something I am doing, link them to this blog.. or my
page.. tell them to send me a private message.. I will
respond.
If you want to hate on me, or cause grief because of
this.. like I said before, you must not have been as close
to me as we first thought, or you would have had NO
PROBLEM coming to me in the first place.
I love my friends.. I love my family... They all are very
important to me. I worry about all of them, no matter
what the problem. No matter who they are. I even worry
about my friends friends that I do not know.. Its my
nature.. It's who I AM!!! Get used to it.. Get used to
me!
With Much Luv To All!!!!
~ME~